Today is my due date. Please hold my hand?

[nocluenoclueatall]

I've tried soo hard to deal with this and I was doing great, but a friend just emailed to tell me she had a little girl this morning. I'm so happy for her, but I'm gutted. My little girl would have been due today too, but she didn't make it.

I feel like there's no one to talk to. I've had a second miscarriage since that one as well, so another due date looms at Christmas (great timing)... Goddamn. This all seems so cruel.

Holding your hand for as long as you need, noclue.

I'm so sorry

xx

I'm so sorry for your loss noclue. What did you call your little girl if you don't mind me asking?

Holding your hand too, I have suffered two miscarriages this year and a stillbirth last year. Anniverseries are hard, life can feel so unfair.

I'm so sorry - I'm holding your hand too. It's the cruellest thing. xx

Thanks everyone. Sometimes I think the worst thing is that you can't really explain to anyone why you feel so sad... I really appreciate being able to talk to someone.

And I'm sorry to hear about your losses too fanjo. Sometimes life seems so cruel.

Dawn we didn't get along far enough to give her a name. I don't even know for sure it was a girl, just a strong feeling that was what she was.

Not forgotten. None of them are are they?

You'll never forget them, they are your babies it doesn't matter how many weeks they were, the loss is still too much to bare sometimes. Be gentle with yourself, and if you need to rant I am a good listener.

Holding your hand tight. Had a terrible time on my due date earlier this year. Totally ambushed by how deeply it hurt. Impossible to explain to those lucky enough not to have experienced it (and I wouldn't want to!).

I'm sure your friend meant no harm, people don't realise how raw it is. Terribly difficult to hear her news out of the blue today of all days though.
Hope you've had good people around you to help make today bearable.

Thanks. If nothing else fanjo and arseface you've raised a much-needed smile by your ace names.

No, unfortunately my friend didn't know I'd miscarried, let alone that I was due the same time as her. She lives overseas and I didn't want to tell her. Something similar happened to me when I had my DC, it was upsetting enough as the still-pregnant one, thinking about how my friend was coping with losing her son. Just terrible.

Off to bed in a minute, then the day is done. Will look forward to getting on with my life and appreciating what I have got instead of what I lost.

Thank you so much.