Should I be feeling better by now?

[firefli]

I had a mc just over 3m ago. I was feeling a lot better, especially over the last month or so, much calmer and even quite relaxed about ttc. I'd even managed to see other pregnant women without getting (so upset). Today I took my dd to a class a where there was a pregnant friend (now past her due date) and another friend with a newborn baby. I felt really upset and spent the hour struggling not to burst into tears until I made it back to the car, where I ended up sobbing with my dd in the back. Was at friend's for lunch / playdate and did feel better, but back in the car ended up shouting at my dd for whining that she didn't want to go home and then crying again.

I'm tired of having my emotions ambush me, especially as I thought I was and feel like a crap mum to my dd who doesn't deserve another baby. Now I'm not sure if I'm just having a bad day or if I'm going crazy.

Hi Firefli - I remember you from previous threads as I think we had our miscarriages at the same time. So sorry to hear you're having a rough time. I am actually back on these boards as I've also started to feel worse again. I too was feeling loads better and really getting with things but all of sudden in the last week or so I've started to feel quite sad again and really panicked that I need to be pregnant again now! I also feel like I'm surrounded by people either announcing pregnancies or having babies and the ones due when I was all have big bumps now :(

Not sure I have any great words of wisdom to be honest. I am hoping that with me its partly homonal as I think af is due soon (my whole cycle is messed up so don't think helps). I know that I need to enjoy my time with my DD and appreciate her even more, which I do, but seeing how grown up she is now makes me feel even more stressed about not being pregnant anymore!!

Don't be too hard on yourself though, its really still quite a short space of time since our miscarriages and even though if feels like forever you will hopefuly be pregnant again soon and all this will be a distant memory. I think some days are good and some days are really rubbish but that is totally normal. I am also having accupuncture which I defintely think helps to calm me down!! xxx

Thanks teaandchocolate, I remember you too. Sorry you're struggling through all this as well. As ever though, it's reassuring to know I'm not the only one. I guess it is normal to go back and forth in our emotions, but it is hard to be back to feeling sad and stressed when I thought I was "getting over it". I think ttc is a bit of an emotional rollercoster anyway.

I do definately need to try and relax. I was looking up some meditation and relatation techniques this evening, and I'm thinking about getting a fertility yoga dvd to do. Will look into accupuncture too. Good luck in ttcx

Thank you! I hope you get good news soon. Let me know how the yoga and relaxation goes. I'm ok when I'm busy but the evenings are the worst as keep getting really stressed that I'm not pregnant and am not ovulating and that my last pregnancy was my last chance for another baby. Totally overreacting I know but in a way I was surprised at how calm I'd been. I had another mc before I had my DD and after that one I was an anxious mess until after my 12 week scan (about 9 months after the mc!). So I reckon any semblance of being sane this time is doing well!!

Keep me posted on your progress! It's so nice that someone else is in the same boat...obviously even though I wish we weren't xxx