Success 6th time around?! Everything crossed.

[aMuminwaiting]

This is my 6th pregnancy in three years. I've been on clexane and aspirin since my positive pregnancy test 11 days ago. I've had terrible cramping since day one (which I've had in other pregnancies and scared me then too) and am super tired. I've been trying to get my first lot of bloods done because I was told last time they needed to be done after a week of starting the clexane. I keep being fobbed off or told the paperwork is in the post and I can go anywhere to get it done then. So much for taking good care of me this time around. I was also promised an early viability scan but that hasn't been booked yet either. I've been trying really hard to stay calm this time so I don't put my body under any unnecessary stress. It would be so much easier if I had medical staff on my side though. Of course I haven't been able to get hold of anyone over the jubilee but I think i might just do the hour drive to the blood clinic on Thursday and demand they see me. What are my chances do you think?!
I'm also running out of space on my tummy to inject. The bruises are massive and not helped by some of my tummy being taken up with psoriasis. I look a mess but it will all be worth it if it works!

My thoughts are with you at this time!
It's so horrible to feel that all you have been through was not enough for them to ensure your not scared, and worried, especially with your history!
I would go and get bloods done and can you get to a early pregnancy unit and get scanned!

Fingers crossed all is well xx

They won't see me without an appointment and they keep telling me they'll send a date through and it doesn't happen. You know what it really feels like? That everyone thinks I'm going to lose it anyway so there's no point in doing anything.
I'm doing the usual. Scared every time I go to the loo (which is about a hundred times a day), scared when the cramps kick in, scared when they don't. Hoping I'll feel terrible soon so I know things are happening even though I had all the symptoms in the fourth pregnancy and the baby had been dead for four weeks. I saw my consultant on 1st of May and demanded I get referred to St Marys and she said that would happen very soon. Of course I've heard nothing and even though she said "all they do there is hand holding" which I know is not true, I thought even just that would be more than I'm getting here. I think feeling like someone cares if my baby lives or dies would make a huge difference to my wellbeing.

Thinking of you OP. The waiting is agony and nobody seems to understand what you're going through. We do though! God, the knicker and symptom checking is a nightmare. And the injecting in your tummy sounds awful, feel for you.

OP here's a virtual hand hold. Hopefully your paperwork and appointment will come through soon and 6 will be your lucky number. Good luck x

Hi Waiting, im on pregnancy number 6 too (ive had 7 mcs altogether, but 5 in the last 4 years)
Had mc about 7 weeks ago, waiting for af...didnt come so did a test and it was a strong +, feeling terribly sick today but have no idea how pregnant i am.

SO

You and me girl, shitting bricks about 10000 times a day....whether going to the loo or not!
In limbo.
So shall we do this together sweetpee?

I was sitting on the loo last night (tmi?) having cramps and tentatively checking the loo paper when I thought, why shouldn't it be me that things go right for this time? Then I get scared when I'm being all positive because I think I'm tempting fate! Honestly it's enough to make sane person mad so goodness knows what it will do to me!
I got the paperwork through yesterday but all it said was full blood count and I thought isn't that what they did at my surgery. So phoned them and it is. I thought that there was a separate blood test to check my potassium and platelet count?! There should be a course for people who have RMC so you know what to demand because the powers that be certainly don't know. So now I'm waiting for the early scan and hoping for the best. The last time I had a scan I had a MMC and then opted for a D&C purely because I thought that being in hospital meant they would at least be able to do chromosome testing on the foetus. Wrong! They tried to test CM instead.
Please please please let this be successful. I want my baby and then I'll never go through all of this again.

Oh love you sound so stressed out.

I have never had any testing on my lost babies.
The bloods that they will take from you will be HCG probably, i really cant see what testing your potassium will do tbh, platelets will give some indication of how well anticoagulated you are. IF clotting was the cause of your mcs, then this will be important.

I am resigned to the fact that there is nothing any one can do to prevent mc, from my own experience, what will happen will happen.

aMum, are you ok? x

I'm ok at the moment thanks. My tummy is super swollen as in I look about six months pregnant but am used to that with the IBS. Everything feels tight and sore which I guess is no surprise when I've been sticking needles in myself. It seems real pot luck on if I bruise terribly or not. I took a photo of the mess so far so I know where I bruise more easily in future.
Would be really good to hear from people who've been on it or are on it so we can compare bruises etc! It's so hard to know if things are all normal pregnancy symptoms or something I need to get checked out. Right now I have trapped wind which is making me feel like I'm going to pop. What with the bruises and swollen belly I look like Violet Beauregarde!

I hope you are feeling OK. Best thing you can try to do is just relax. I am 34wks right now with pregnancy no. 9 I have just 1 DD who is 8 and it has taken me this long to get this far. It is different everytime for everyone. But my best advice is take it as easy as you can, try to relax, don't count your chickens yet and take each day as it comes.

I never had any tests on my lost babies either, I just felt like I did not want to go down that path. Nosleep is right, what will happen will happen especially as it is still early. I have beaten myself up so many times and tortured myself through early pregnancy. With this one I took it really easy and if I am honest tried to not even think about the fact that I was pregnant until after 12 weeks. In the past I had been to the Early Pregnancy Unit and been scanned and monitored early. All it did was give me false hope and stress me out. This time I did not go to see them until I was 13 weeks and I knew that he had a much better chance to go the distance.

Feeling bloated, having trapped wind, feeling sick in the early days are quite usual. With this one I felt AWFUL for the first 4 months. Bloated, sick (I suffer from gallstones as well and do not think that helped) Please please do not examine every little thing your body does and look for an answer. Be good to yourself, look after yourself, eat well, take your prenatal vitamins, and REST UP. Allow yourself to be strong and to love who you are, whatever happens you need to look after yourself as best you can and not beat yourself up. Anything you can do to relax yourself and chill is great.

Huge hugs - I know just how you feel and you will get there, just give yourself a break xxx