Just so sad

[Ankon]

I had a late miscarriage at 18 weeks 5 weeks ago. My AF has returned this week and I am so sad and angry about it. It feels like my body is betraying me by saying "ok, that's it. Time to move on. All over now. Everything is back to normal". It feels like I was never pregnant.
I really am angry about this. Has anyone else felt like this?

Ankon....so very sorry for your loss.
It's truly devastating. It was 5 weeks today that I suffered a MMC at 12 weeks 5 days. My AF returned last week & I felt very much like you, angry & as though my body had got back to normal whilst my mind & heart still haven't caught up. Doubt they ever will. I am so very sorry for your loss.

Thanks Wifey for your words. I am so sorry for your loss too. It really doesn't seem fair to me at all. I am very lucky to have 2 gorgeous children already (everyone keeps reminding me of this....) but it doesn't make it any easier. Hopefully our minds and hearts will catch up with our bodies one day but I 'm not even ready for that yet. I just wish it all never happened.
It's good to know that I'm not the only one feeling this way.

Ankon....thank you...I also have a DS who I am even more grateful for. Do you have any RL support you can turn too? I have found surrounding myself with a handful of great people has helped make those tougher days a little easier to deal with. I have built up a little care kit of all the things I find comforting, useful & significant that I an call upon when i am struggling. One day & step at a time x

I am so sorry for you loss :(. I had a mc 8 weeks ago at 12 weeks ish (I didn't know my dates very well)

I felt/feel exactly like you. My af arrived 5 weeks later and I felt so bad I had to take another 3 days off work because I kept crying. I think I'm quite lucky that nobody reminds me how lucky I am to already have 2 children. Nobody seems to say anything now though, it's as if everyone else has moved on and forgotten it already while I'm still completely miserable :( I'm managing to pretend I'm ok in public though, which is a positive step from where I was 3 or 4 weeks ago.

Wifey and Jodidi (so sorry for your loss too), it is good to surround ourselves with great people and I am lucky to have done that but I also find that everyone else has moved on. It hits me at random times. Like today, I was in a shop trying to buy some clothes to fit (still too big for my old clothes but don't want to wear my maternity stuff) and I had to walk out in tears when I remembered that the last time I was in that shop was when I was buying maternity clothes.
I guess we just have to keep doing our best to keep moving but also remembering to have a good melt down every now and again too. I think this is really important. As is chocolate. xx

Jodid...sorry of your loss.
Ankon...it's natural to feel like we do...& how we deal with it is all down to personal beliefs..choice & by the support we have.
I often look around & see how people have just carried on...but I know it's not their sadness to bear & have more or less accepted that I will always have this sadness...but hopefully the enormity will get less.

Think its quite normal to feel angry, you are grieving.
Hope you can find the strength to get through such a horrible time.x