What is this golf ball sized hard lump? Sorry TMI

[loolo]

Over the weekend I started having miscarriage. I was 12 weeks. Should be having dating scan today.

I started bleeding on Saturday. No pain until Sunday evening. Sunday night was horrific. Like being in labour. Passing big liver like lumps. To start with I kept all clots because was desperate to see baby and not just flush. But, after six hours and thoroughly exhausted, I just sat on loo and pushed. A lot came out and I flushed.

Monday morning had internal scan. Dr confirmed miscarriage and said that my womb had emptied and everything had come down to my cervix, waiting to be passed. She said she couldn't see baby and it was likely I had already passed.

The pain stopped yesterday but I have been feeling shit about flushing and not rescuing and burying.

Then this morning, got up in desperate need for pee, sat on loo but couldn't go. Nothing. Then huge urge to push. Felt like I was doing a no. 2 from wrong place, pushed out a bigger than golf ball sized hard round lump. Caught in tissue paper. It looks like a tumour or something.

I just wondered if anyone could tell me what it is. I don't know what it is.

Didnt want to read & run but not really sure what it was - it could have been the sac :( So sorry to hear you are going through this loolo. Take care x

Loolo, I'm sorry to read your experience. I was just a little further on than you when I miscarried. The same thing happened to me, I believe it is the placenta (and was told so by ambulance men) If it doesn't pass immediately at the time of the rest of the mc, its edges turn in on themselves and form a ball. I though it was some sort of tumour or prolapse when it happened - at 14 weeks, it was the size of a cricket ball with a surprisingly thick umbilical cord. I took photos of everything that I passed (probably TMI) and every now and again, I look at the photo of the placenta and if I am on my own, I have a cry, it helps to get the emotions out. I think somehow the fetus got encased within the placenta as I can see an outline of what looks like a fetus through it.

Please don't feel bad about not being able to catch it, it is a very emotional and physically tiring experience to go through and those who have not miscarried can try to understand but they will never know what it is truly like.

I wish I had been stronger and looked at the placenta as they are interesting and are made from both parents' cells but when the emotion is raw, it isn't always possible. I deeply regret not looking at it and feeling it, instead I packed it up and gave it to the hospital staff who disposed of it after examination. I wish I had asked for it to be returned so I could bury it in a respectful way.

You're not alone, this board is very helpful and someone, somewhere has often been there to listen and comfort.

Loolo, just wanted to add that the number of days b/w what happened to you on Sunday and what was passed today was the same for me.

It's likely that if what passed looked as though it had symmetrical lobes then it is all over and the bleeding will have slowed down a lot. I did go to the EPU the next morning as they couldn't scan me at hospital in the evening (after the initial shock and miniature crowning of what I thought was a tumour/clot at the time, it was more sore than painful) Best to check that that nothing has been retained when you feel up to it. I hope that you are ok.

So sorry for your loss. I also had this, an orange sized lump that was the last thing to pass. I was in a&e at the time as it had stuck in my cervix and I'd been in a lot of pain. They told me it was a clot, but it did look more substantial than that and I suspect it was the placenta. It seemed to have somethings wrapped round which I think was the sac that had burst earlier. Sorry if tmi. I think lots of people feel they'd have liked to have managed things differently, but it exhausting and traumatising and just impossible to be fully reflective at the time. I hope you can let those feelings go a bit. On another thread on this topic someone said that it helped them to think of their baby moving with the water out to sea.