Pregnant after mmc Yeeeeeey and aaaaarrrrrgggghhh!

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Hi all, just wondering if anyone else has been through this and would love to hear your story! I got pregnant in Feb....was ecstatic, first and very much longed for baby. I suffered a mmc at 13 weeks (the baby had died at around 7) was an awful experience, ended up in hospital for 3 days and was an emotional wreck for some time after. Had started to show and tell people so really was so cruel. Then we started trying again and I COULD NOT BELIEVE it, but tested positive a couple of weeks ago. I am just gone 6 weeks and feel so odd! Im elated of course and cant believe how lucky I was to get caught again so quickly....but Im also so terified of it all going wrong again! Feel gulty for not being as happy and excited but just cant bring myself to be??? Every time I go to the loo I get THE FEAR that there will be blood....i do have hope that today i had to run from class (im a teacher) to be sick....so the symptoms are good and strong, but because I never knew anything was wrong last time I cant trust myself! I am going for a 10 week scan (my GP was lovely and suggested this so that Im not spending weeks more stressing) but 4 weeks seems sooo long away.....also the next week will be hard as its around the time the baby died last time!....any words of wisdom will be greatly recieved! xxx :)

CONGRATULATIONS! I can't offer any words of wisdom but hope all goes well for you this time :) I had a m/c 7 weeks ago and fingers x'd I get my BFP in a week or so xx

Have absolutely been through this. Scan at 13 weeks showed no heartbeat since about 6 weeks. Had erpc then pg again. Now have 2 healthy dcs.
How you feel is totally normal. Such strong symptoms are a good sign. A teacher here too. Now wondering if I know u in rl!

congratulations on your pregnancy!! :) And also sorry for your previous loss.
I think I may be in a similar situation to you. I fell pregnant end of Jan, had a mmc end of March (was meant to be 10 weeks, baby measured 8 weeks). I havent had af since miscarriage so did a pregnancy test on sunday and had positive result. At first I wasnt sure of its a new pregnancy or left over hormones from miscarriage but im starting to think its a new pregnancy now after reading up on it. Got doctors appointment to confirm on Tuesday. I should add that that I have done 3 more tests since then and the positive result has got darker each day. I think I am just over 6 weeks pregnant.
I want to be happy but I am really struggling at the mo. I feel like if i feel happy about it i will jinx things. I am trying to believe im not pregnant so I wont feel so upset if it goes wrong again. Dp is complete opposite and is trying to get me to think positive but it is so hard!

Good Luck to you ladies- I have been there, the first few weeks ARE a tough time, no doubt about it.

Hope you get all the reassurances you can as soon as possible

Thanks everyone, @babybellasmumma that sounds good!! Fingers crossed for you.wolfiefan* ooooo I really hope I get the same!! Was it Dunelm today (rock and roll!) and hubby was oooing and ahhhing over some nursery stuff.....just can not wait to be at a stage where I feel it is ok to do that without getting crushed again! Never thought this but just cant wait to be huge!!!xxx :)

Sending positive vibes! Hoping your scan goes well.

I've just booked a private scan for NEXT MONDAY aarrgghh! Me and the hubby kinda wanted to get one in before half term holidays....so I'll be 7+5 for the private one....then should get an NHS one at around 10....Im guessing that will be the main critical bit over with....oh I just pray that there will be a heart beat!x

How exciting! I have all my fingers crossed that all will be great for you! Xx

Congratulations on your pregnancy! And sorry to hear of your difficult loss.

I just wanted to add that I had a MMC last year - my second scan showed the baby had died at around 13 weeks - and I am currently 22 weeks pregnant again.

I felt just the same as you, a real mixture of emotions, and I went for a private scan early as well to help reassure me. All I would say is take it a day at a time and try and talk about your worries on here or with DP or with good friends - it helped me to share my nerves.

It's a difficult thing to be PG after a loss, and I wasn't really able to relax until we had a good 20 week scan. Be kind to yourself and do what you need to do to get through the early stages, and remember there are so many positive stories of people having children after a MMC or MC - there is a much higher chance that you will have this baby than not. Good luck!

I've had two mc after dc1 and then gone on to have two more children. I don't think I ever relaxed in pg like I did with dc1 but it got significantly easier after I had passed the point when I lost the others and with each milestone, 12 week scan, 20 week scan, 28 weeks etc it was even better. Congratulations on your pg.

Thanku all so much for ur messages,Im just trying to relax,but now we have a scan booked time is moving so slow!Just really want to see that its viable.Have only ever seen a scan where the baby had died :( think Im just being really manic thinking 'have my symptoms gone' or 'is that a cramp I can feel' oh well,what will be will be!x

So had the scan on monday and there was a strong heartbeat! yeeeeey! Am still on edge and haven't 'relaxed into it' yet....but hoping I will! Have very strong sickness and tiredness so guessing thats a good sign! xxx

Great sign. Wishing you well.

So glad your scan went well :) I went for a scan yesterday and I also saw a strong heartbeat (lovely feeling isn't it!). They dated my pregnancy as 7 weeks and 1 day yesterday. I know exactly what you mean about not relaxing into it yet, I feel the same, don't think ill fully believe its happening until at least 12 weeks! Xx

Aw thats lovely!its beautiful!never thought id be so emotional over a little blob :) the dated me bk so I was dated at 6.6 on mon when by my dates I was 7.4 I was like nooo another wk added on to the 12wk scan! Are u having another scan before ur 12 wk?x x

I can imagine u were disappointed when they dated you, do u find the time going really slowly now aswell? I just want the 12 week mark to hurry up so I can relax a little bit! They were lovely at the epu and said I can go over again at any time if I am worried or need reassurance so I may go for a scan at around 10 weeks as I know ill b worrying more around that time (that's when I found out id had a mmc last time). Will u be having another scan? Xx

Oh wow,thats fab,they wnt at mine unless ur bleeding/in pain,if not id b there every week!..think im the same as u,was 13 wks when found out so just need t 12 wk scan so bad!..may pay for another at 10 wks if getting worried though.Time is goin so slow,just wnt to be further along n be able to tell everyone n buy baby things!feel guilty really,for not enjoying this early stage,hope ur bean is well x

Great news! A strong heartbeat and terrible morning sickness - all good.
You lot are warriors! I'm still a mere foot soldier and trying to gain strength to do it all again.

Apologies for posting in a block of responses tonight - finally have some free time. Good luck to all.

Being a foot soldier is hard enough!..the best of luck for when u decide to go for it!x

I had two mmc's one almost 6years ago and the second not that far short of 4years ago. I feel your loss.

I now have a healthy baby son who will be two in 2weeks time. I felt exactly the same. It's like a big muddle of feelings. I had no bleeding, nothing so I was scared stupid but my son was healthy. I know I am so very lucky.

Hoping you will have a healthy pregnancy.