Jealousy

[Sazbrilla]

It seems that at the minute everyone around me is getting pregnant and having healthy happy pregnancies. But I can't. My Fb homepage is full of friends going on about their young babies (2 of who's babies are similar to the age on of mine would be now) and about how they are pregnant. I feel like crying every time I see such a post. On a daily basis I'm reading about milestones I should be seeing my little baby doing but I see nothing. :(

It's very hard and I'm so sorry for you.

I was driving pregnant Mums to be up to the hospital for their scans/ante natal appointments etc after my first loss and I had to be taken off the road (was a bus driver back then) because I was in such a state. There really is nothing that will make it hurt less until you have grieved and even then, I found that it only really became easier once I'd had my Ds.
Try to be kind to yourself and understand why you are feeling the way you do. What you are feeling is normal even though it feels so bad :(

It is very hard. I know what you mean about facebook. I would change some of your settings so you hide certain people from your newsfeed for a bit. Especially the ones who post daily baby updates. Its not like you are unfriending them, it just allows you to see their news when you choose to visit their page, not have it thrust into you face everytime you log in.

We definately all feel jealous and how is it that even if you have friends from different ages groups, suddenly everyone is having babies.
I have had to change my settings on fb and even stop going on as much as it only gets me down.
As solo says it is normal and we all know how u feel and our thoughts are with you.
Best of luck to you in the future.
xx

Thanks all. It's getting to the stage I don't want to be on Facebook anymore. I avoid all program's where I know there are babies n pregnant women yet I do watch the worst thing possible. I watch one born every minute. I can only watch a few mins of it at a time but I still subject myself to it. Is that wrong? X

It's not wrong at all, I suspect you are wanting to take tiny glimpses of the world you expected to find yourself in. Instead, you are grieving the loss of that expectation of becoming a Mum.

I was a complete mess; I couldn't work for months. I stayed home with closed curtains, listening to dolphin music with lit candles and tarot cards out...
The positive things that I did do though, were that I made a memory box up for my baby and I planted a shrub in a big pot outside in the garden. Those small things really helped me.
I hope you have some support and that you allow yourself time to grieve.

I think that's exactly it solo. Thank you x

It does get easier Saz, truly it does.

It took me 12 years to fall pg for the first time (was told it was unlikely I'd fall naturally) and I MMC'd. I was devastated. It was a further 2 years ~ almost to the first EDD that I had my Ds. He cured a lot of my heart ache, but you never forget your first. I was thinking of him today; he would've been 16 in August. He'll always be my first baby as I'm sure yours will be too, but they live in our hearts and I believe that one day, we will hold them in our arms too; just not yet.
Take care of yourself.x

Thanks for your support solo x