officially found out on 2.2 that i was pregnant, i say officially as i suspected for two weeks prior (this would have been DC 3)
on 6.2 had some light brown VM that worried me called local midwife and was advised to call again in the am....
called in am of 7.2 and was informed that i would see midwife in local gp that afternoon and that an early scan had been arranged for 10.2
on the 8.2 all had gone quiet on the VM scene and remained that way.
went to scan appointment on the 10.2.....
had external scan first and was advised that they wanted to do an internal scan. went to loo at midwifes request....wiped myself and had fresh blood.... :( :( :(.........told scan operators this....
had internal scan and this showed all the right things but no baby....was advised that could just be too early....getting dressed was filled with despair especially when cleaning my self up...had plastic internal cover semi in/out had to remove myself and was covered in blood :( :( :(
back upstairs in the EPU...had bloods taken for hormone level....had internal and swabs taken.....given future dates for either way scenarios....
went home......buried myself in duvet tried not to stress...hold on to glimmer of hope.....
went to loo later on...full scale bleeding and cramps and pain and despair...
had a call fropm midwife...was advised that my hormones were below 50...? ? ?
and should expect a bleed......DUH!!!!
hid at home until went to GP on 14.2....signed off for a week.....
ran away to bornemouth on 17.2.....
currently sat in caravan......fighting the saddness and 
of those wonderful ladies on the due in october 12 threads......
words cannot justify how i feel......