It was horrendous, but at least it's done. I'm a bit annoyed with the hospital. They tried to explain to me what it was that I'd go through under conservative management after the first scan which showed a 6w embryo at 11w. This was apparently what I had opted for but in truth I wasn't given any other choice. I was told that I'd pass tissue. What I wasn't told was that it would be placenta like tissue (I have children already, I've know what it's like) due to the fact I should have been nearly 12w pregnant yet my body hadn't realised there was no baby beyond 6w so everything had kept growing. I didn't know this until a friend who'd been through similar at 14w told me.
I also passed the fully intact sac, all at home, alone. I ended up in hospital due to blood loss as my cervix became partially blocked as I was miscarrying. The hospital didn't do much apart from manually clear the blockage (unbelievably painful and undignified) then monitored blood loss and put me on a drip overnight. They told me to go home and continue with conservative management the next morning. On my discharge notes it says that's what I opted for, but I wasn't given a choice. I passed more placenta yesterday. Hopefully that's it now. I am heartbroken; I want my baby back. My head is like cotton wool today. I know it will get better with time, but I just feel so numb right now. I don't know what to do.