To never forget

[EllenandBump]

I dont know if anyone will even bother to read this, but sometimes it helps just to think about them. In all the run up to christmas, the importance of making christmas special for my 18month old , and everything so hectic, i still stop to think about the first baby i lost, who i always called junior, i also believe she would have been a little girl, but stopped frowing at between 8and 9 weeks, although i should have beeen 16weeks 4 days when i was told. She would have been 5 years old on boxing day and i cant help but feel sad that she didnt make it. I dont know if it's just because i am low or what but i have been thinking about her alot the last week or so, i also think about the second baby i lost, who i always called little one, who i believe was a boy and he was due the 26th march. I dont know whats making me feel so sad thinking about them, i have a beautiful healthy son, but i cant help but wonder what they might have been like, i know everyone says you cant miss what you didnt have, but i did have them, but lost them.

I am sorry for anyone elses loss. xxx

I have read your post, and I am sorry for your losses.

I had my second mc last month and think about my lost babies every day, despite having a beautiful healthy one year old.

Thinking of you tonight xx

Aww hun sending you a big hug. I have had 5 losses in 3 years and even though I didn't them I wonder what they'd be like now!

Christmas is always a hard one for me I mc 6 dec 09 and 24 dec 10, this year although I have a heavy heart and have a cry every now and again its getting easier.

Are beloved babies will never be forgotten the ache will always be in our hearts esp worse around due date or mc anniversary!

Please know your not on your own and feel free to rant on here whenever you feel you need to it really does help.

Take care x

Meant to say I didn't get to meet them

Thank you, both my miscarriages were due on the 26th, i had my first midwives appointment on the 26th june and found out at my first scan on28th june that the baby had stopped growing. The second one, i lost on 26th august. He had stopped growing at 8 weeks 6 days. He had died on the friday before. x