Here we go again ...?

[Chestnut99]

I think I'm pregnant but am being a scaredy cat about testing. This would be my 5th prenancy, one DS and three MMCs. DH and I would love to have another baby but its a daunting prospect to be facing the new few weeks of trying to send positive thoughts and love to the tiny bean whilst worrying that it might have gone :(

That's all. Just wanted to say "I'm a bit scared" out loud to people who would understand.

yes, i can totally understand this feeling. once you've had more than one miscarriage that postitive test is no longer a cause for immediate joy and anticipation - it's more a feeling of 'oh wow, here we go again. please God, make it work this time.' and that's how you feel pretty much every waking moment of every day, until you know one way or another if it's going to stick. it's the most hellish time, i found - the longest few weeks of your life as you wait and see. a kind of psychological torture, where every twinge, every trip to the loo, every temporary loss of sore boob/nausea symptoms, makes you feel it's all gone wrong again. I've been in your shoes five times, and the waiting-to-see was truly dreadful. i'm happy to say that the fifth time, the torture was worth it, and i now have a beautiful baby girl. just do whatever it takes to get through each day. wishing you all the best.

Thanks Sotough :-) Took the test this morning and sure enough, I am expecting. Deep breath ... here we go ...

Congrats Chestnut99

I just had a miscarriage last week and I'm totally devastated, but your and Sotoughs stories give me hope for that BFP in the (hopefully very near) future. You both sound very strong and I hope I will be too. I think its important to normalise your anxieties after being through so much. I'm very neurotic as it is, I'll need peeling off the ceiling next time. Wishing you a very boring and uneventful 9 months, fx this is a sticky one

x

Totally understand. I've only had the one mc but at the moment I'm a nervous wreck. Congratulations though :) MIL told me I should enjoy the pg for what it is, worrying won't change the outcome, whatever it is. She's right but it's hard.

I'm sorry to hear of your mc MrsDoyle :( I'm pg three months after a mc. It can happen xx