I'm a bit of a lurker here but never post. I need some hand holding atm. This may be a bit long so i'll apologise in advance 'Sorry'
I have two ds's atm before i conceived ds1 i had a mc at 15weeks. It was horrendous and i put it down to being my first pregnancy and maybe my body didnt know what to do. Anyway fast forward 4 years in October last year i fell pregnant and was overjoyed (we were trying) it was short lived i mc at 8 weeks.
I got pregnant again in December but was so sure id loose it because i had spotting when my period was due that i completely and stupidly ignored it. I carried it till Feb then lost it over a whole month and it was hellish. I developed an infection and had to tell someone, go for a scan etc. I got a scan the beginning of march and they could see a 6 week sac with a heartbeat!!!! I'd gotten pregnant again! God knows how!!!
I lost this baby at the end of March. I think it may have been the anti biotics i was on for my infection.
Anyway here is my problem im late again by 2 days. Im never late. I'm crapping myself. Mainly because i'm gonna look like a complete idiot getting pregnant again so soon after all the palava of before. And of course because i just can not handle another loss. Its so painful physically and emotionally. 