ERPC yesterday...having a bad day today

[LittleWhiteWolf]

Feeling rough physically and emotionally...have been horrible mummy to my DD (22 months nearly)...horrible to DH. Just horrible in general. Weeping and sobbing on and off.

Been checking my temperature religiously as I feel warm and I'm paranoid about catching an infection. Temp always fine.

I had been coping incredibly welltoo wellbefore today. I figured after the surgery it would hit home and it has, but God, I've just been awful today

I just feel like the worse wife and mother today.

I don't even know why I'm posting as I don't expect responses. I just need to purge this out somewhere to people who understand.

They signed me off work at the hospital and I felt fine, but now I'm glad they did. I only work Tues and Weds morn next week due to the bank hol and only working part time anyway, but I think I really do need it.

Sorry to moan on and on...

So sorry you are feeling so low and sorry for your loss.

You do need time off - until you feel absolutely well enough to go back.

Is your dp supportive?

Does he work full time?

Is there someone who can help with hour dc when he's back at work?

He does work full time and he's on call as of Tuesday, but I think it'll be alright. I can go to my mums if needs be in the evening. She's been supportive, as has DH. He really doesnt deserve horrible me at the moment DD will be at nursery all day Tuesday and half day Weds. I'm sure I'll be alright by then...its just a low day today.

Thank you for replying, I appreciate it.

Huge hugs from me, I just don't know what to say other than this is a great place to get support and a shoulder to cry on. I have another week to wait until I go in for med. mangmnt, so can only imagine how you must be feeling physically. You are a terrific wife and mother who needs a lot of tlc at the moment. xx

We've just had some chocolate trifle and strawberries, will send some along by the virtual highway!

Oh lovely, i'm sorry (cwtches)

I've found, now it's all over with i'm left with a 'What now?' kind of feeling. It's hard, but you can get through this because you have to. You're allowed to be sad, angry, moody, stroppy.. whatever - you just need to be gentle with yourself.

Have you been given antibiotics at all?

Thanks Norfolk.

I am being so well looked after by DH and my mum rang to check on me earlier, so I am being well supported. I just feel so ungrateful

You aren't ungrateful at all. You're hurting, you're grieving and it;s still all so raw.

Please be gentle with yourself x

X-post Dee.

No I didn't get any anti-bs. I'm sure I won't need them, my temperature is fine I'm just a little paranoid and a bit sore, but nothing a little paracetamol doesn't solve.

I woke up this morning still feeling fine, and that made me so cross with myself as I was TOO fine, you know? I felt I should be grieving more. Now here I am, mourning and going through everything as I ought to, and I'm mad at myself again.
I know, i'm being too hard on myself.