As the title says, this is my 2nd mmc. Last one had erpc at almost 11 weeks in August. Am going to hospital on Friday for medical miscarriage at 8 and a half weeks this time.
After the first, I was told I would most likely have better luck next time, so I wasn't afraid to try again.
It took 7 cycles after my periods resumed to conceive. I feel that I have wasted so much of my time and emotional energy and for nothing. All those bitter disappointments each month, all the stressing about when the right time to conceive would be, all the times wondering and hoping if that cycle had been successful or not. So much of an emotional roller coaster and it has been for nothing.
I'm afraid to try again and I know at the same time that the health service will do nothing until I have had 3 mc. It seems heartless to make me go through it again. I know that isn't necessarily what will happen, but I dont know how my mental health will take this loss, let alone adding another one.
And if it takes me another year, and then I lose it again, well, I'll be going on 35 and then will worry that it is getting too late.
People say "it will happen eventually" but that is annoying me as they are saying things that they have no way of knowing.
Sorry for the depressing post. I wanted to get it off my mind a bit. Perhaps if some ladies who have also been unlucky to have 2 or more mc could tell me how they decided to move on, and how their doctor did/didn't support them it might help.