Hi to whoever is kind enough to read this post.
This is my first mumsnet post. I'm just trying to find someone who understands.
I miscarried a month ago. It was early on - 7 weeks - and I was lucky because it wasn't painful and I didn't 'see' anything. In fact I didn't believe I'd actually miscarried until a week later when I went for a scan and they confirmed it. The next day my toddler ended up in hospital for the weekend with breathing problems related to a virus. I didn't really get chance to think about the miscarriage for some time because I was so worried about my toddler.
I've been trying to be very practical about it - all the things you are told when you miscarry... We are lucky enough to have a baby already; it was an early miscarriage; we can 'try again' etc etc.
However, I'm finding it so difficult to be positive. I keep crying and crying as I get waves of grief that envelop me. I then get angry and throw things around or punch my duvet. I can't concentrate on my work. I just feel so desperately isolated. Whenever I speak to people they tell me the same things I've written above, which make me feel like I shouldn't be upset or grieving. My husband has been wonderfully supportive, but I still feel so alone and numb.
I feel really selfish for grieving because I know people have much worse, unspeakably worse situations.
I know all these facts but I still feel so low and upset.
Please can anyone offer any advice, or at least tell me that things get better?
Thank you so much.