early miscarriage

[ZhuZhuhell]

my period was 20 days late on saturday and i got a faint positive but then later that day i started to bleed. it was just like a normal period. normal heaviness/pain. its continued that way. i tested again yesyerday and today a got a slightly darker line in about 2 mins.
i went to the doctor today and she said it looked like i have had an early miscarriage. i am so, so . i do have 2 dds but i still wanted this one as well. even though i feel sad i also feel kind of numb as well, like its not really happening. i know as it is early its not as bad as some of the miscarriages you ladies have experienced so sorry if i sound rediculus to you.
no one in rl knows except dp. i dont know if thats better or worse.
sorry for waffling on. i just had to try and write how i feel.
thanks for reading.

Really sorry to hear that, it is still painfull however early! I think it will help to tell close people (well it has with me) You need support & understanding from friends & family!
Love & Hugs to you...xx

thank you MrsSteph for your reply.
im glad your friends and family were supportive to you. im reluctant to tell people as i dont want them to dismiss it or to worry about me. i think if i told my mum she would be really upset for me and worry i was ok.
when i told dp i had to tell him over the phone and it really hit me hard and i started to cry. it makes it more real saying the words out loud.

It does, you need to do whats right for you, but people will worry about you because you need them too right now! I think your mum would be upset if she found out you didn't tell her & went through this with out her surport! I always knew miscarriage was a dreadfull thing to go through but it isn't until you it happens to you that you realise it is so so upsetting! Keep in touch with me if it helps to talk!xx

So sorry to hear you are going through this too ZhuZhuhell (and you too MrsSteph). I don't think close friends and family will be dismissive - they will see how upset you are. I told my mum and she has been great. I also had to tell some people at work as I kept taking so much time off and acting weirdly. Everyone has been very kind (which makes me cry but that's probably not a bad thing!) But you do whatever is best for you - but you will probably need some support from somewhere to get through all this.

It is a horrible thing to happen and I know exactly what you mean by 'numb'. I found out yesterday and that's how I described how I was feeling on another thread. Today, one moment I feel okay and just want to be positive and get on with the future - the next minute I am blubbering over the sink!

Keep talking. x

MrsSteph i know i should tell her it just feels weird. i feel like a silly little kid rather than the 30 year old i am. also my mum had a mc before she had me with twins and i dont want to bring bad feelings up for her again. thank you for replying i read your thread and realise you are going through a far harder time than me. i will keep in touch and you can too if you like. take care. x

artifarti sorry you are going through this also. you dont realise how many people it affects till you come on here. it must be hard having to go to work as well. im just at home so at least dont have to put on a brave front.
take care. x