Emotions to pregnancy announcements...

[babaloulou]

I had 3 M/C last year (preg, M/C, period, preg, M/C period then same again throughout the year)Decided to give myself a break over the seasonal period as it nearly broke Dh and I the last time.

Last week for everyday for three days I found out friends were having babies. The third one I felt like I had been punched in the stomach! So thats 7 babies due this year. 2 the same week my last baby would have been due. I am angry with myself for letting myself get upset about it. I have even been unkind about some of them to my DH, hate myself for it!! I am truely happy for everyone and believe our time will come.

On the outside no one knows my pain just DH.

Please tell me this is a natural reaction.
I am sure many people have felt the same. How did you deal with it?

Yep, I had my 6th loss the week before Christmas. In the following week I learned, via facebook, that 2 of my friends were pregnant. I have a couple of close friends who I've known for 20+ years, we always socialise in a group of 3. When we were 19 we all learned to ride motorbikes together and all passed our tests in the same year. So the last time we met up it felt quite significant somehow that, after our various struggles, we were all at various stages of pregnancy. I spoke to one of them this week and it was really jarring. During the conversation, each time one of their due dates was mentioned it felt like being slapped in the face. On top of that her brother's girlfriend who was also at college with us is due next month so there were 3 impending births talked about. It's so hard.

Another friend of mine had a baby around the time of my previous miscarriage and I've only spoken to her on the phone twice since then. I have been meaning to call her but keep putting it off as she is a lovely girl but slightly self absorbed and a bit of a drama queen and I know she will start complaining about how much hard work it is looking after her two, but how gorgeous they both are etc. In the meantime I am being completely rubbish by not calling her. Oh dear.