Hello, has anyone experience severe progesterone intolerance with the capsules and then the Mirena coil? The capsules led to severe dread, freezing and anxiety and so I came off them. Went on the coil instead and had a very severe reaction, just total hormonal chaos for a month that overwhelmed/collapsed my nervous system. I was in bed for weeks, barely able to get to the bathroom. Strong adrenaline surges, bad nausea, no appetite. As that eased I had panic/anxiety attacks every morning, sometimes into the afternoon. But over time these attacks seems to be easing and it seemed like I might be able to stick it out. But last week I had a severe set back for no clear reason. It's caused the most intense panic attacks I've ever had and introduced very depressed thoughts that I hadn't previously experienced. I'd been told by the specialist that my body would adjust to the coil if I could stick it out for 3 months. I've now been on it for 3 months.
I feel trapped in my body knowing that coming off HRT will make things worse but staying on it feels intolerable. It feels like the only way out is dying. I'm not suicidal but the thoughts of dying being my only escape terrify me. The progesterone has destroyed who I am and I can't see any future. My brain feels so hijacked by the progesterone intolerance that I can't trust my mind, I can't trust that things won't escalate further and cause me to end everything - not because I want to die (I really don't!) but because I can see dying as the only way to end this nightmare. I'm scared for my children, that they will grow up without a mum. I would never do that to them in my right mind - but my mind has been hijacked and I can't trust it. I want to come off HRT - I just can't take any more. And most importantly for the sake of my children. I should add that prior to HRT I had no mental health issues - I only went on HRT because of hormonal migraines. The progesterone hijacked me 7 days after starting the capsules and then the coil.
Has anyone else experienced this? And has anyone else experienced coming off HRT and the coil? I'm terrified that coming off will make me worse, especially coming off the oestrogen which could enhance the anxiety - and I really am at my limit now. I want to be in hospital on very strong sedatives. Any advice or experience would be most welcome. Thank you