I am 48 now. I've been on HRT since 43. I started on a 50mcg estradiol patch and 200mg progesterone (utrogestan) capsules 12 nights a month. After a few years when my symptoms returned I had to fight to get moved up to 75 mcg estradiol and then again to 100mcg. Prior to each increase I felt like hell, I wasn't sleeping, I had terrible joint pain, hot flashes, the worst brain fog and low mood, crippling migraines and there were times I seriously contemplated ending my life because it just wasn't worth living like that. I've just had my first review with my GP after starting the 100mcg (she has me in to do my blood pressure, weight and blood sugar, cholesterol every 6 months while I'm on HRT) and my blood pressure is down, cholesterol and blood sugar are now in the healthy range when previously they had been creeping up high. Its not all perfect but I was telling her how much better I was feeling and sleeping, that I was exercising more, doing strength training, losing weight and back working again. She said that was great but then reiterated how "you can't stay on HRT forever" and that in the next year or so we'd need to have a conversation about my reducing the dose and then stopping essentially as soon as possible as I have already been on it now for 5 years.
I just can't face the possibility of stopping at any point or not for a long time. I'm not even 50 year so still have almost two decades where I will need to be working and earning and I just have no quality of life without the HRT being at the right dose. I'd love to try the testosterone and be prescribed some vaginal estrogen but it feels like any mention of additional hormones is met with such resistance from my GP.
I was searching online about this and found the UK GP subreddit where it looked like a lot of GP's were saying the same kind of things that HRT was too risky and that demand for it had got out of hand, that is should only be for hot flashes and was over prescribed and demanded for mental health and sleep issues now. This was in a post after a high profile HRT advocate was diagnosed with breast cancer.
I do want to stay on HRT long term, I looked at the nice guidance and the British menopause society and both say there is no longer any defined deadline to stop HRT and that staying on longer term is a choice to be made between the patient and doctor taking individual risk factors into account. Why are GP's ignoring the guidance like this and how can I stay on HRT long term, for me my life was hardly worth living without it.