Have I made a mistake going on HRT

[Dobie54]

I'm 39 and have posted about starting HRT. I'm on my second Evorell 24 patch and honestly feel worse than ever. I'm not sleeping more than two hours a night now, laying awake and buzzing despite being tired. My anxiety is truly off the scale, I feel paranoid, disassociated and too scared to leave the house. Brain fog I thought had cleared and I'm a writer so this was great, but today I could barely proofread a sentence. I'm a mum to two small children and I'm freaking out that this is the new status quo. I cannot go on like this. I still have the addition of progesterone to contend with before my period and worried how my mood might decline even further. I'm not sure if I should push on through as posts suggest it will settle, or just give up. My symptoms were life inhibiting, hence why I plucked up the courage to try something.

Over the last week or so I have definitely felt my moods tanking again, so I am not sure if I need more or less estrogen. I find it so frustrating as my doctor is not very knowledgeable so I am stabbing in the dark. When I was on the cyclical progesterone the bloating was out of control, but maybe I will give that another go to see if I can regulate again.

I have just been reading various accounts about low mood and some people needed less estrogen and some more... minefield!

That's a shame things seem to be getting worse again. It's so hard to figure out - I wish I could at least be more certain that my issue even is perimenopause, even though it seems likely. That's then half the battle and the rest comes down to figuring out the treatment. I'm wondering if I just won't get relief so long as my own cycles are going on in the background. I feel good approximately 0 times a month but there are definitely some notable bad points and they seem to cluster around times of hormonal change - then again, when I add them all up it feels like that basically covers the whole month! I.e. period/early follicular - recovering from hormonal drops; pre-ovulation - body trying to ovulate underneath extraneous hormonal influence; ovulation - a minefield in itself; luteal phase - body trying to have a period against extraneous hormonal influence.

My bloating seems to be worse on 2 pumps. I don't notice it so much on utrogestan, taking it cyclically, because I tend to be bloated through that phase of my cycle anyway, but I'm really bloated even on the estrogel now.

Hi I was prescribed oestrogen 2 pump gel and 2 Progesterone tablets for 14 days nearly 4 weeks ago, the first month I got sore legs but my back pain and hot flashes went away but towards the end of the tablets I got really bad brain fog, anxiety and night sweats back and then last day of tablet had a period and major migraines that had left me feeling like I am rocking when I walk and feel like I am swaying but I’m not. have since gone down to 1 pump this week but no idea what is happening has anyone else experienced this?