I have an appointment with a GP specialising in menopause next week and I just wondered about others experiences. I have not been on anything for menopause before, I'm 45 and my periods are still regular but heavier than they used to be and I get more cramps. I am getting hot flushes now (I have never been more grateful for the icy weather arriving and could be found in a vest in the garden for a bit yesterday!) and a bit of sleep disturbance.
But it's the mood swings that are really getting me. I have a history of anxiety disorder episodes right back to my teens (when I started my periods incidentally) and have had SSRIs at times although I try not to take anything. But my moods are now quite scary, and I can suddenly feel totally removed from everyone and everything, that everything is totally pointless, that I just want to crawl into bed and never leave it, or even some quite dark thoughts. I'm as anxious as I ever was but I think I'm catastophising even more and it's quite hard to deal with. And then suddenly, it lifts and I feel almost hyper. I haven't had anything quite like that before.
I want to try HRT but I'm nervous of it, having not had good experiences of hormonal contraception. I am now at the stage where the low times are worrying me so much I would like some SSRIs again. Will the GP give me both? Or will I have to try one then the other? I just want the dark clouds to lift or to just feel more stable. I'm not bothered about the physical symptoms as much.