Perimenopause or is this just me? Anyone else similar?

[OneMerryUmberAnt]

I am 45. Recently, I have been really struggling to get myself motivated and putting things off. I have so much to do at home, for my work, and I need to go out food shopping and I am just procrastinating and doom scrolling. I can't get out of my head and the noise is constant in my head (don't know how else to explain). I notice my sleep is sometimes impacted between ovulation and my period, and I wake up early with everything going on in my head. I am my own worst enemy as I go to bed too late.

I struggle to deal with the behaviour of one of my children, and need to get on with an online parenting course that I have been referred to. I am just a mess!

I have been seeing a counsellor which has been helpful but after every session I overthink as well about the sessions, and question if I am just stuck the way I am. I use some of their tools/techniques to help destress but nothing stops the constant chatter in my head.

I'm quite overwhelmed with noise and find the calm app helps me a bit

In the same I have no get up and go - I'm fine at work because I have to get stuff done but personal stuff I've let drag - even filling basic forms out.

I can't even be arsed to book a doc appointment to get me on HRT

Same same. I think I've always been like this. Not sure if of I'm worse with peri or just more aware. I do wonder if I'm ND. I'm on HRT for horrendous hot flushes. I think it helped the insomnia too. As stressed as ever, but less tired.

This is definitely me.
id never leave the house and it wouldn’t bother me in the slightest. Work from home, shop online. When I do need to go into the office, it’s the biggest effort ever.

Certain points in my cycle the insomnia and early morning anxiety is horrendous, but I’ve now got to the point where I only have a period about every 3 months so no idea when that point in my cycle is going to come.
Can’t take HRT due to family history of breast cancer, so I’m trying some supplements, just started this week. I’m so hoping they at least make a bit of a difference.

Could well be perimenopause related. Mood and motivation can take a big hit when your hormones are all over the place. I used to get anxious and panicky about little things like going out to buy groceries. I started HRT 9 months ago and am feeling a thousand times better, back to myself again. I really recommend using the Balance app to track your symptoms and other lifestyle stuff like sleep and activity