WearsBlackEatsChocolateAvoidsPeople ·
02/12/2024 10:12
I am finding it so difficult to look at things rationally right now and I am making myself feel worse than I already do (peri anxiety is overtaking my life right now). I simply can not stop stressing over hrt and the potential bc risks.
I am 51 and have struggled with perimenopause symptoms for the last 6 years (daily digestive upsets, awful anxiety and depression, anger, headaches, exhaustion, zero libido, aching all over, drying out everywhere and having a very bleak outlook to life). Things are getting worse and nothing I do 'naturally' is helping at all. I am slim (mainly due to the digestive upsets) and I exercise daily (bmi of 21). I don't drink any alcohol (probably had 20 drinks in my entire life) and I have never smoked. I know these are all positives regarding bc risk factors but that does not help me at all right now as I feel that I have higher than average risk factors and feel that maybe I should not take hrt?
I didn't have my dc until I was 32 & 35. I sadly failed to breast-feed them. My mother was diagnosed with hormone sensitive bc this year at the age of 81, these all put me at a higher risk. I really don't know if we have many females with bc in our family because my parents are both only children.(I know mum had two cousins with it, both on her mothers side but neither grandmothers had bc). I am really concerned these factors will put me at a higher risk than the average woman and taking hrt will raise that risk higher. I have seen too many people die from cancer and it terrifies me.
But the flip side to this is that my poor mum also has a pace maker due to heart issues (both her parents died from heart disease), she is bent over with osteoporosis and has Alzheimer's - all diseases hrt is supposed to help prevent. I am probably at risk of these diseases too. It's a double edged sword for me as I certainly don't want to suffer with these diseases as my poor mum currently is.
I am so fed up dealing with a myriad of peri symptoms and I couldn't get a decent answer regarding hrt via my GP due to my mum's bc and the fact I also have endometriosis and adenomyosis so last week I saw a private gynae who specialises in hrt. She has prescribed me Oestrogel (750mcg) 2 pumps daily and Utrogestan 200mg 14 days on and 14 days break.
But I really am very scared to try it......how the heck do I overcome this fear?