Lost my sense of humour.Anyone else,?

[whatisforteamum]

So I'm almost 58 and went from an energetic bubbly happy person despite being on quite a high dose of hrt.
My self esteem is shot despite being slim,working hard and exercising.
How do you keep your spirits up without ADs.
I know some of it is missing the adult dcs and having no social life due to previous lack of free time due to working loads.
Some days I could cry when I see everyone else laughing and joking.
Help.

HRT. Honestly, if I wasn't on it, I'd be a grumpy, miserable ball of rage!

I feel like this sometimes too. I will be 50 this year and I was recently looking back at photos of my 40th Birthday. It actually made me sad. Within those photos was a slim, happy confident woman who loved life. A woman who ran marathons and was part of a running club with a wide circle of friends. The photos were full of my children as they were 10 years ago and my lovely Mum was sat next to me. Roll on 10 years and my children are grown up. One has left home and the second is heading to Uni in September. My Mum has passed away and as for me, well I am now an almost 50 year old woman who has gained about 2 stone and can no longer run due to ill health. I lost touch with all my running buddies and my self confidence and self esteem has taken a dive. I have times when I am happy and content and other times when I am full of anxiety and dread. I overthink and over worry sometimes and I look in the mirror and don't recognise the slightly overweight, tired, unhealthy looking woman staring back at me. I am going through perimenopause and mainly cope using vitamins and supplements. I too sometimes feel like I don't find joy in things like I used to. On the few occasions when I actually go out, I find that all I am doing when out is wondering when I can get home again. I NEVER used to be like that. I loved socialising but now I just feel like I want to hide and go back to my comfort zone. I hate that I cannot talk to my Mum about this stage of my life and that bothers me. I am seriously thinking of giving HRT another try (I tried the gel and progesterone tablets but have a horrible reaction to progesterone so had to come off it) Maybe thinking patches might be worth a try for me. I would love to feel 'content' again.

Sorry to hear that Sniffywhiffymum.
We were once responsible for others who are independent rightly so or we ve lost parents.
Or in my case I worked really long hours now I've got too much free time perhaps.
I do work 35 hours a week so out the house for 9 hrs a day.