Evening all I'm a newbe and looking for some advice, help, support I don't even know my self what I need ATM. I'm currently 37 and 4 years ago I was sterilised after having my 5th child I also went through a VERY messy divorce and suffered a lot of mental emotional abuse from my ex which I Still struggle with today.
In the past 2 years I haven't felt my self at all and doctors keep telling me it's ptsd from abuse and depression and bung me on tablets, I've had cbt and counselling and nothing has helped at all. I'm always so fatigue no motivation what so ever and can easily sleep my days away, I feel useless I feel like a bad mum as a result have suffered financially. I have lay in bed at night praying I won't wake up and my suffering will end as I can't see this ever ending as I have tried everyone I can think of, I shut my eyes at night and search my brain for the off button. My periods are OK is but my pmt has got horrendous and I feel for my family when it's time. Omg the sweats iv never experience.anything like it. The reason I mentions been sterilised is because prior to that I've either been on contraception or pregnant my body had never been natural and now it is apart from the clips. I watched an episode on this morning about 2 weeks ago and a lady was experiencing what I have I felt like I was watching on TV, she was given hrt to try and it help her no end. Iv had blood done for hormones and they came back normal but I do understand they fluctuate every hour. Do I have the right to ask to try to hrt? I'm so desperate to try anything I just want to feel not even me but human again I want to live but it's exhausting these days. I'm so negative about every as nothing excites me no more, my sex drive has completely gone and I'm in a new relationship and it's impacting on that, please help anyone????