Bone tired of it all

[Enigma52]

Aged 53, Post menopausal, TAH hysterectomy last November.

No HRT allowed due to hormone positive primary and now secondary breast cancer. Treatment includes a hormone inhibitor and an anti cancer targeted therapy drug.

I've had enough. I feel bone tired, achy and irritable as hell. My body craves oestrogen, not allowed! Every bit of my body is dry. I use Ovestin and vagifem daily, but it's not enough.

I feel done for, scrap heap material. My brain won't function, can't think of words and everything is annoying me.

Just had enough now.

I feel your pain. I’ve been on aromatase inhibitors for 2.5yrs and really struggle with energy levels and muscle and joint pain.

After a bit of research I discovered that the drug causes fluid retention in joints, a Scandinavian study ( very recent) trialed the use of antidiuretics to reduce the fluid retention and nearly 50% of the women in the trial had significant improvement. Elsewhere, in the US they are suggesting Loratadine ( anti histamine) to also help.
B12 and magnesium supplements help muscle pain.

I take furosamide and loratadine and have noticed a big difference.
I also force myself to stay active. I’m a bit of a creaking wreck first thing but after half an hour I loosen up.

Weirdly it changes from day to day, even hour to hour. One minute I can run up the stairs, an hour later I’m crawling up on hands and knees.

It’s shit but I’ve given up giving into it.
I’m currently having a break from gardening, we are remodelling, we replaced two couple of fence panels so I’ve just put the old broken up panels in the car to take to the tip. I find I just break things down into hourly bites of work with a feet up break between.
We are hoping to finish the garden by the weekend so we can start to enjoy any good weather coming up.

you are having a really hard time- no wonder you feel awful.
you are not scrap heap material. You’ve just got a lot going on AND the menopause.

Yes I feel bitter that I should have to go through this shit show for as long as I'm alive. Bitter that some " friends" haven't even had one cancer, let alone fucking 3!! Bitter that the shite cancer is stopping me from feeling a little better by using HRT. I was on HRT before all of this and I felt relatively okay. Now I don't. These god damm hormone inhibitors are horrendous.