Can’t find any motivation

[MsAnnFrope]

Anyone else feeling like they just want to run away to a secluded hut with some books, art materials and a good supply of decaf coffee?
joking aside, I just can’t be bother to do anything. Every commitment or emotional demand seems too much. The biggest issue is understandably work. I’m signed off due to horrendous perimenopause anxiety and depression and I just don’t want to go back. I loved my job, was fascinated by the work, have great colleagues and I’m just feeling dead to it all now. If I was made redundant I’d be so so happy.
im 90% sure the feeling is just related to my hormones. Im definitely in perimenopause but can’t have hRT for health reasons. But if I don’t do something then soon I’ll be perimenopausal and unemployed.

I felt like you OP at this time last year! I'm definitely perimenopausal. I've been taking peri supplements, cbd and exercise most days and it's all made a massive difference to me. I also have monthly counselling, (too expensive to have it more frequently) because I feel its important that I have that bit of safe space just for me to talk. I've also realised many things over the past few years through reflection and focusing on myself, which peri forced me to do. Anyway, that feeling of not wanting to do anything and just sitting with a book or binge watching series for days (which i didn't actually do, just felt like it) has passed! I'm still having other perimenopausal symptoms but I'm back to looking forward to life, work, friendships etc and actively wanting to do things. I hope you find that reassuring, it does pass. The main turning point for me was understanding that I can have a future without the horrible abusive arsehole who I've been suffering from in a farce of a marriage! I'm now really looking forward to living a life free of him and the possibilities it offers! Is there anyone in your life who is dragging you down? Sometimes it's not about hrt, it's about what's happening in your life!

@Finallysawthelight I’m so glad you’ve found those things helpful. I’m also having therapy in my case I had some childhood trauma stuff which it’s been helpful to work through.
otherwise I’m really lucky to have great people in my life and objectively a really lovely life. Which sometimes makes me feel very guilty that I’m feeling so sad and demotivated.
im going to look into supplements today as several people have said it helps.
good luck with your future!