Apprehensive...
After so long celibate, dh and I having settled into our celibate life, am I actually going to enjoy sex again? What if my body is not up to it? The last times were painful and unpleasant - that was when I learned about vaginal atrophy. I'm on HRT and have no discomfort down there any more, but haven't 'tested it' in a few years IYSWIM.
What if my head doesn't think of dh in that way any more?
What if I get angry? The mood swings of peri were hideous for the whole family. I don't want to go back there!