My father died just under three weeks ago. I started HRT five months ago as the anxiety was crippling me and it was excellent, however, since my father died my symptoms have returned. Is this life stress or does my HRT need increased?
I always visited my father, he was in a care home but he was never good to us. I'm now troubled with thoughts like, "what if I lose my mum"....she's amazing, my best friend, we share the same friends, do everything together, live together.... I also worry about my husband, will be be a support if anything happens mum as I know he gets overwhelmed easily. I'm an only child (47) and no family really apart from mum. I'll be 48 shortly and I keep thinking I'm getting old, how everyone is either sick or dying, how I only ever hear bad news.....
I'm a Norm Again Christian. I love Jesus passionately with all my heart and so I get frustrated in my head if my husband isn't as committed as I'd like him to be. He got saved some months back but still avails of things he shouldn't. He's such an amazing husband though. Very very kind and lovely. I'm so deeply in love with him and he with me. We are very blessed in that department.
Anyway, I digress....
Do I need to phone my GP and ask if I need a higher dose of Evorel Sequi patches or should I wait, see if I calm down over the next week or so and go from there?
I'm terrified of getting depressed as I had a very serious few years of deep depression in my early 20s and it was the most awful period of my life. I'm phobic about it in fact.
I'm on an AD called Venlafaxine 112.5 once a day, Levothyroxine 100s and Evorel Sequi 50. At the minute I've a poor appetite but make a point of eating. I normally love getting ready, dressing nice etc but at the moment I'm just not interested.
I worry about the future constantly. We have no kids. Hardly any family. I worry about my mum dying constantly. I worry about my husband getting ill. I worry about one day being alone.
I have nice friends. I've always made and kept friends without an issue as people always seem to like me. I love to serve others, help people and be kind and I want my energy and hope back so I can be the person I like being....a friend who loves others and sees the best in people.
Sorry for the rant!
I just have all these emotions and fears since my father passed. Even my withdrawal bleed came the day after my first progesterone patch instead of at the end, ie, the 4the one....
Please help x