Not sure is this should be posted in the menopause forum or the mental health forum but here goes.
I have a diagnosed mental health condition which means I'm triggered easily and have a high degree of anxiety. Enter the perimenopause which has made things even worse. I don't work although use to - have been a sahm for many years.
I have one or two interests that I like to pursue but are largely insular though I do attend groups connected with these. There are other things I could be doing - I could join a gym for classes and a swim, I have been pottering with doing something on-line with a view to raising money for charity, thinking about what volunteer work I could be doing, all with a view to feeling more connected. The problem is I can't commit to anything or be definite about what it is I want to do. I don't have to work and would struggle to do the work I used to do so anything I do workwise would be low skilled which is why I have thought about voluntary work/pursuing interests.
I am taking HRT which so far has not been particularly effective and needs tweaking (this is in the pipeline). I am also waiting for EMDR therapy re. mental health issues. I'm not sure I know what to do for the best. I have just starting taking anti-depressants knowing winter won't help as I feel better when outdoors. I had a heavy period this week and poor sleep, I had to motivate myself to get some fresh air and light exercise.
I don't think I can be the only one who is struggling. I have heard of women giving up their careers etc. so it can be a huge time for reflection. I have achieved one ambition and have dc to focus on but can't feel hugely passionate about one thing in particular to expand life. I have no particular answer to the question - what is it you've always wanted to do nor if you could imagine the ideal life. I would like to feel more connected both with myself and others but this involves actually doing things and nothing seems enough.
Can anyone relate to this? Anyone else feeling a bit lost/lacking direction.