Memory lane

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I'm very perimenopausal (it's crap) and I've recently found myself vividly thinking about the past. Mainly when I was a child, pre-teen years and early teens and as daft as this might sound, I feel really bereft! I feel like I'm grieving for that child and for those years and all the missed opportunities. Is this normal? I keep wishing I could go back to those days and I keep having to give myself a talking to and to get over it! Peri is very strange, or making me feel very strange anyway! I wanted to know if anyone else is going through similar.

I may be barking up the wrong tree but have you still got your mum around?

Oh my gosh, yes!
I'm post menopause and have been doing this for the past five years now.

I feel as though I'm grieving for my old life before kids, for my parents whom I moved away from to live with partner, for my old town, friends, everything!!

I don't know who I am.
I need to do something.
At the moment I'm contemplating leaving my partner, but not sure where to go, as DC are teens and off to uni and back to school soon.

Missed opportunities.
Poor life choices.

Hi @pilates yes I've still got my mum around, she's alive and loud as ever! 😁

@Sortmylifeout52 yes exactly! I know what you mean! That feeling of wanting to go back in time and just have your chance again. I totally relate to poor life choices. When I think about some of the choices I made, and the long term effects, I have realised how daft I was in making those choices. Not just daft but really naive, I thought everyone had at least some good in them! I think I'm grieving the days when life was ahead of me and there were so many possibilities. Now I feel that life is behind me and I've wasted quite a lot of it because of the bad choices I made, (actually, it's mainly the one bad choice I made).