Many replies here, thank you all.
I did have comprehensive bloods done about 18 months ago now, and everything came back ok.
@Tulipvase I did have a strange feeling in my left leg, it almost felt like a ‘dead leg’, but now that you mention it I haven’t had it for a while.
Life / Covid / Peri / emotional eating means I’ve put on loads of weight, which may be putting my joints under strain - but often the worst time is when I’m just out of bed in the morning.
I have done a bit of internet reading, probably not enough. And I did go to my GP - she was sympathetic and wise, but I think her view was that the outcomes of widespread use of HRT were still a bit of an unknown, and that “it may be a small percentage increase in the risk of getting cancer, but it’s 100% if you do get it”. She also spoke about the necessity of accepting ageing - aka “that’s just getting older” as @putthehamsterbackinitscage mentions
The reason I’ve ordered from Superdrug is a) I feel I’ve done enough reading to feel comfortable with that and b) I’m still in two minds about getting a prescription (which is probably a bit silly, I can always just cancel at any time and c) my GP wants me to get my smear test up to date before prescribing, and I just don’t want a test done any more (the last time was awful, and my birth experience was so awful I just don’t go along and consent to things the way I used to.)
The menopause has come on quicker than expected. In some ways I feel so far I’ve got off lightly - no flooding, minimal flashes, minimal brain fog, and I’m appreciating the lack of PMT. The weight gain, joint pain, occasional rages (a really horrible thing to contend with with your the sole parent of a young child 😩) are not great, but what’s really bothering me is the lack of oomph, the lack of libido, the complete evaporation of nurturing feelings (my DS is 6), the feeling like one if my engines has cut out, and I’m just not ready for that.