Am I depressed or just hormonal?

[Fififizz]

Feeling really flat and meh at the moment. I’m on HRT oestrogen and progesterone, my dose of progesterone has just been increased as I wasn’t absorbing it sufficiently. I now feel more stable as opposed to tearful, moody and I’m functioning but just have that can’t be bothered feeling about everything. The daily routine is so dreary but I cba to attempt to shake things up. I just want to do the bare minimum and be disengage from most things/everyone really. I don’t feel typically depressed more sort of just about functioning through the day and the main things that need to be done.

Maybe more oestrogen would help? When I started feeling like this the gp upped it and it helped.

Maybe it’s that. My progesterone was upped recently because I wasn’t ‘balanced’ so too much oestrogen and it’s definitely levelled me out emotionally but I just feel very meh and cba. I want to curl up with a book and be left alone. I’m neither happy nor sad just bumbling along and kind of functioning in the broadest sense. I’m wondering if I am depressed or whether this is just me now. I could happily decamp to a deserted island for a while where I wouldn’t need to engage with anyone or anything. 🤷‍♀️

That’s exactly how I felt. Meh. I was on a very low dose of oestrogen; doubled that and it helped a lot. I then also got testosterone which added another layer of positivity and libido.

Yes, I think I’m needing to tinker around until I find my balance. There’s no talk of testosterone until other hormones are optimised. That’s definitely what I’m lacking any feelings of positivity!