Mid life crisis

[orangespikeyfrog]

I feel like I’m acting very out of character . I’ve just turned 50 and have started working in London regularly . I lived in London in my twenties and it’s brought back many memories having a care free life including a romance with an Italian guy I met in Asia and then we carried on the romance when he went Back to italy and me London , he came to London a few times before it fizzled out. I’ve tracked him down on linked in he looks just the same and I feel It’s only a matter of time before I contact him ( once I get a decent profile pic of myself )I don’t know what I’m hoping to achieve .. but I just can’t stop thinking about him . My life seems so dull I have a partner of six years we don’t live together , after a turbulent marriage to an alcoholic he’s the opposite of my ex husband , predictable reliable and well just boring !!! I have a ten year old son and I’ve been happy and content to plod on with family life but now there is just this yearning for something more to be the person I was / Is this menopause related can I “ cure it” with HRT??

I'm definitely yearning for something more but not sure what!

Yes op, can relate to what you've posted and I can see how relationships breakdown at this time. I'm definitely thinking about my younger self/years. The peri-menopause (not sure if yours is hormone related) has created loads of issues for me and I'm not able to take HRT which doesn't help. I have definitely had the feelings of 'dullness and sameness' and 'looking for something else'. I've recently lost a lot of weight and I think I'm looking for a bit of an ego boost as I often feel invisible but I have recognised this and I'm trying to re-direct this energy into doing more for me and looking within rather than outside myself - self care, identity, hobbies and interests etc. I have similar age children too and have realised family life is a lot to jepodise when the grass may well not be greener (take a lot at the relationships board as an example of this).

I'm also having a bit of therapy which I find is wonderful as I can put my thoughts in a safe place. Not sure what else to suggest but sympathies can definitely relate.

Yes i can relate to this.
Only this morning, I was reminiscing about my younger self, when I was a carefree professional with at least some sense of who I was.

Now, aged 51, post menopausal and feeling stuck in a rut.

I totally understand why and how relationships can fall apart at this stage of life.

I thought Hrt would help but it hasn't. I'm probably worse than ever ( if that's even possible!)

No patience, lack of direction and a moaning seemingly ungrateful teen, who drives me mad.

Oh well, onwards and upwards as they say!