That feeling of wanting to run away from myself

[Whatabanana]

Hi, I've suffered from this (assumed) hormonal problem all my life- my emotions get messed up. I remember as far back as my 20s getting really agitated and thinking it was a relationship issue but then realised a pattern. I get this feeling of wanting to run away but not knowing where to go (and not actually wanting to go anywhere), yet feeling that it's impossible to stay where I am. It's hard to explain but maybe a feeling of needing to escape from my own self. I am wondering if it is increasing now due to my age (48, no other symptoms yet). But more importantly- what is the solution?? It is so horrible to feel this way and knowing that nothing will help. I know it passes with time but that doesn't help DURING. Does anyone else relate??

Yes, very much so. Terrible PMS since 19, now perimenopause and continually want to run away!

It sucks doesn't it?! I feel really sad for my daughter and other women that it has to be so hard. I think maybe some kind of intense meditation might be the key, but only guessing.

I found hrt has helped. Also doing dumb bell exercises and regular exercise that includes moving - walking / dancing / running changes that feeling in your body.

Yes, another one here. Watching thread with interest as nothing constructive to add.

That's what I feel like too, my head is swirling with problems but never any solutions.

Yep I sometimes even spend whole nights feeling like this and don’t get any sleep!

I do find swimming helps though. I’ve started going three times a week and it’s very calming.

I was in the sea today (and last few days) and agree, that is my happy place. Unfortunately not permanent

I think it's harder to go to a pool post covid though.

Me too! I just want to hide, not from anything I'm particular, just everything.

Yup, I just want to set fire to my life. I do yoga, swim in the sea which alleviate it a bit

I'm perimenopausal and have been for about 8 years...
Tried every type of hormonal medication suggested (including mirena) and in desperation endometrial ablation - nothing helped and tbh hrt made my migraines so bad I was advised to stop any hormonal supplementation.
It's that time of my cycle again when I sit in my bedroom wallowing and scrolling through rightmove looking at houses by the coast for just me 🥺😬
I cannot wait for this shitshow to be done...

Oh I do love a good house hunt on rightmove. If I am hearing you correctly there is no proper solution though, just possible temporary relief. Wish I could afford my own heated pool...

Another one here who is deep in peri-menopause. I too look on rightmove for houses by the coast for just me. I love the sea...just being near it and I often fantasize about somehow owning a bolt hole near the coast.

Interesting to hear about the swimming...it is on my 'to do' list. Coast too far away sadly.

@Whatabanana

I think it's harder to go to a pool post covid though.

The pool at my gym has gone back to normal now, no booking and no other restrictions. I’m loving it!

Funnily enough I feel like that a bit now - not that I want to run from the people in my life, far from it - but that I want to get away from how I feel and break out.

In my late teens and 20s a few times I had an overwhelming feeling of wanting to get away and literally walking out of where I was. I wasn't in danger or anything like that, I just had to get away - never went far, as the Stereophonics say. This is different though, this is me being utterly fed up with how I feel about myself these days. Even if I'm 50, overweight and unattractive, I'd love to feel in my head that I'm still 25 and lovely!

I know that in my case it comes partly from feeling trapped - jobwise, housewise. I can't go and do a different job, we can't move, those just aren't possibilities for us and won't be for ages, and that makes me feel a bit claustrophobic. I don't know if any of that is relevant to your situation?

I told my GP (also a woman of a certain age) that I wanted to do a Reggie Perrin. She put me on Prozac for a year along with my HRT and it pretty much saved my life. It cleared the feeling away just enough to be able to focus a bit more clearly, enough to spend some time in self care. I also did a house and life purge - everything from paperwork, to books, to useless friends, to old clothes, to time consuming hobbies. Life is a lot better now.

Wow... I’m totally getting this, have been the same the last few years just thinking it’s me and accepting and screaming at the same time that this is “Normal” xx

Thus could be me. I'm currently sat here crying. I've had loads of peri menopausal symptoms over the last few years and now I have what I think is burning mouth syndrome (I'm also a massive hypochondriac prone to diagnosing myself with terminal illness on google). I'm so fed up of feeling crap all the time and worrying that my feeling like this is going to affect my family. Sorry not to be able to offer any advice but you're not alone x

I frequently want to run away.it’s a symptom of GAD. Anti depressants help.