Flat restless and feeling like something is missing

[hopingtobedally]

Is this a thing?
Been in chemical menopause since last August
Already on anti depressants. I can't put my finger on it. I just feel like I'm lost and empty and have zero enjoyment and motivation
Anyone have this and what did you do about it? I've turned back to my teenage years to be honest to get a buzz the risk taking behaviour affairs drink the lot
I want things to change but not sure how

Is HRT a possibility? There's a Caitlin Moran thread, discussing the effect of hormones. It's possible that the female hormonal cycle was keeping you feeling more placid, and without it your restless and irritable.

Pah. You're.

Oh dear- sounds as if your behaviour isn't safe especially at the moment.

Chemical menopause- for what? Shrinking fibroids, or side effects of something else?

Have you been offered HRT or is it contra-indated if you are on chemo, for example?

It's to shut my system down ready for hysterectomy
Did try hrt but it made me feel unwell

How long did you try hrt for? Lots of women give it up without giving it a proper go- lots of different types.

I don't understand though why you would be offered hrt if it you are also being given drugs to induce the menopause, as that would be counterproductive.

Sorry to ask so many questions, but why are you having the drugs before a hysterectomy- is this to shrink a large fibroid pre operation? How long are you taking them for?

Have you discussed this with your surgeon and asked for their advice?

Sorry I saw you said you had been taking those drugs for almost a year- why's that? Friends I know who had that treatment took it for around 3 months. Never heard of anyone being put into chemical menopause for a whole year before a hysterectomy.

My niece took this to help her manage a mental health problem, then had a hysterectomy when it was decided the medication had worked. The medication can't be taken longer term.

@JinglingHellsBells it's a known treatment to stop symptoms of adenomyosis
Shut the system down if it works that means the problem is adenomyosis and the only cure is hysterectomy

I've been on it this long due to being on the waiting list. And it's not uncommon I know people who've been on the list 18 odd years

Months not years ffs

Hmmm! Hrt possibly isn't the answer then, is it, because it's putting estrogen back.

I have had slight adeno though didn't know until I had scans for other things and they saw old scars.

Do you need to query how long you are using this if it's affecting your mental and physical health?

Maybe after a hysterectomy, you will be able to have some hormonal treatment again as the cause of symptoms is gone.

It sounds unpleasant for you. Could you take up some more productive risk taking behaviour? I dunno, sky diving, motorbike?

There must be something stimulating that's also non harmful. Have you tried getting interested in something new? it's hard to suggest anything without knowing you at all.

I think @hopingtobedally that you need to talk to your dr about how much these drugs are affecting you.

Would it be too much to stop them short term? Is the adeno so bad you need to use them now even with no date for your operation in sight?

Regarding your risk taking behaviour- booze, taking risks, having affairs (you married? or with married men?) - surely that behaviour is not going to end well for you and will make you more unhappy?

If it's got that bad, you need to discuss it all with a dr and ask for advice.

Yeah it's stopped all the pain but is causing these emotional side effects. I really don't feel like myself

Natural or not, menopause is one almighty headfuck. . All our stuff just confronts us, things we thought we had settled, things we didn’t know we needed to settle. You may find counselling helpful if there are things bubbling up you feel need your attention. It could also be a helpful place to explore the drive towards risky behaviour.