I'm 46 and over last few years I've felt awful, anxiety, mood swings, crying, generally feeling rubbish. Ive been on hrt patches for about 5 months, previously was on tablets which didn't suit. I'm back to feeling rubbish again, lacking in confidence, up and down moods, feeling tearful etc... my doctor has tried to give me anti depressants a number of times, but I insisted it was hormonal, which some of it probably is. However, despite having regular exercise, eating properly etc I still feel depressed! I am seriously lacking the motivation to do anything. I used to be such a go getter, so organised and energetic but now I just feel a mess. It may well be depression, I have had a really difficult time over the past 8 years due to family and work problems... Should I try the anti depressants? I'm really don't like the idea of getting addicted to medication, putting weight on and experiencing any of the side effects of anti depressants that I've read about. I can't carry on feeling like this.