The meno is going to break me

[HellishBellish]

Been through lots in my life and always had the strength to get through it and came out stronger. I am usually a fighter....but this...fook me, I think it is going to kill me and I am still in the peri-meno phase.

I reckon it started about 3-4 years ago. Really heavy periods, longer in length.
Feeling knackered, terrible PMS
Then the anxiety started about 2 years ago. Horrible irrational thoughts. Thought I was going mad and I was scared because I have 2 youngish DC.
Periods got lighter but still regular.
Constant anxiety and very low mood.
Terrible insomnia. Once went 5 nights without falling asleep.
Night sweats.
Then I went on HRT. Been on it 4 months and feel physically better (more energy and more alert) but the anxiety is still there. The progesterone makes me feel like sh!t but next week I am moving to a Mirena.

Present situation - horrible relationship anxiety. Nearly broke up with DH this week. Poor bloke may just decide it is too much hassle for him. The paranoia is through the roof. I'm convinced he is going to dump me for someone half my age and doesn't really love me despite what he says.

Anyway, this is just a rant really. I am feeling so very low. I am still peri so does this mean I have years and years of this? I am a shadow of my former bubbly self.

Go back to the GP and tell them your symptoms. There could be another HRT that would suit you better. I didn't strike lucky until the third one I tried.

I can absolutely relate! I was like the shadow of my old self when my peri started, low mood, depressive, almost suicidal. Things will be better with time! Just give more time to yourself to adjust.

I've been on it since Sept Emerald. Do you think that is long enough or should I give it more time. I am on Estrogel x 2 pumps and progesterone, moving to Mirena next week.

I can deal with a lot of stuff, I am just crippled by fear at the moment. My DH is going through a great time at the moment. Great job and promotion, workmates he thinks are brilliant and then he has to come back to a shrivelling wreck at night. Its being going on for a couple of years, feels like it is getting worse and I can't handle it much longer. When is it going to bloody end?

Maybe you will feel better on Mirena, give to it a try! Are you sure that it is all your fault?
I was so depressed 2 years ago when my Meno started and I had a very bad relationship with my ex husband. Now I think that my low mood and depression was because of his cruel attitude and not only because of hormones.