Bear with me while I explain a bit about the situation. I'm almost 53 still peri and assumed like an idiot the menopause wouldn't affect me! Earlier this year I started suffering from what appeared to be utis but with no growth in the urine culture.This went on for so long I thought I was going mad until I diagnosed myself with va saw a lovely new dr who prescribed vagifem and all was good in that dept.However I was also suffering from numerous other menopausal symptoms migraines,nausea,insomnia,crashing fatigue to name a few and was no longer functioning as a normal human in fact I was barely functioning.I was reluctant to start hrt because of a history of breast cancer in the family however after doing my own research I went back to the gp and was started on elleste duet a month ago. Initially it was great I felt fantastic my dhusband and I went on a holiday,that I'd previously been dreading due to my symptoms,and it was fantastic.I then started on the green pills and noticed a difference. I started getting pelvic cramps and convinced myself my urinary issues were returning I felt more anxious and not as upbeat but still better than before hrt. However at the weekend I started back on the white pills and mistakenly thought the oestrogen would make me feel better again.Oh no I've never felt so depressed.Xmas day I wished everyone would leave me alone even my lovely ddwho I hadn't seen for months.I went through all the motions cooked dinner opened presents but inside I was crying.Yesterday was really bad I was in a really dark place and couldn't see myself ever getting out of it I didn't want to see or talk to anyone.
Today I've had to ring in sick cos I was awake most of the night having a massive anxiety attack.So my question is do I ditch the tablets or carry on in the hope things will improve.Cant see the gp for over a week due to bank hols etc.Any advice or experience welcome.Thanks for reading.