I had a consultation with a gynaecologist last year who has an expertise in menopause/hrt etc. He confirmed that I have an imbalance of hormones. Likely to begin menopause early, but reluctant to test until I reach 40 (in 36). He wanted to put me onto the pill to see if that would help, but i decided against it. Last time it had a horrible effect on my moods, so I foolishly thought with enough research I could find other ways to deal with this. Boy was I wrong. I feel as though my life is falling apart. I am so tired all the time, feel joyless and totally useless. I just don't know who to turn or what to do. Im not depressed if that makes sense? But feel like a dark cloud looming over me. I have 5/kids and really feeling overwhelmed dealing with all their needs and wants. Dr appointment will be make asap. I guess i needed somewhere to vent and hoped someone here would understand. Apologies if its on the wrong thread.