Last summer my GP told me I was menopausal - I had FSH of 65 and I was 41 then (I'm 42 now). I was devastated but that same week my mum had to have a serious operation and I didn't really have the headspace to deal with it all. My GP wasn't remotely bothered by my blood test results and just told me to take some vitamins. He said I wasn't too young for the menopause even though my mum was 54 when she had hers.
But, I've been really struggling to cope with life. I feel completely overwhelmed by work and kids and trying to lose weight. I'm very anxious, tearful, sometimes angry. I'm drowning and I don't feel like myself. I'm normally very outgoing and 'up' and my friend the other day said I'd lost my bubble! She meant I wasn't bubbly like normal I think (I actually hate when people are described as bubbly but that's beside the point!) but I quite like the description. I do feel like I've lost my bubble.
I've finally made an appointment to see a different GP later this month but I'm not sure what to say because all my symptoms seem to be in my head rather than physical. I don't have hot flushes. I'm very occasionally too hot in bed, and I have about two periods a year. I've been having these symptoms now since early 2013 (when I was 38/39) but I've also had a lot on my plate in that time. I've got two small children, both my parents have been ill, I do two jobs, my husband works funny hours so I have to pick up a lot of the slack at home, I wanted another baby but obviously it didn't happen and I've been coming to terms with that too... so could all this be stress? How do I know it's the menopause and if it is - what do I do about it? Or what can I expect the GP to do? Will HRT make me feel better?!
Sorry - bit of a brain dump there. I'm feeling quite desperate and I'm worried my kids are suffering because of my moods and inability to cope with anything at all.