words you describe exactly how I started feeling all of a sudden, just over a year ago. I thought I was suffering from a mental health problem. The random anxiety and depression were awful. The sudden insomnia was dreadful.
My GP diagnosed me with clinical depression. I tried ADs but they just turned me into a zombie and I gained weight. Plus my symptoms kept resurfacing for 2 weeks each month which was curious.
I stopped the ADs and felt less like a zombie but anxiety/low mood were often crippling. I cancelled play dates for my children and missed a friend's wedding because I just couldn't cope 'with people.'
I was a wreck. I didn't recognise myself anymore. I used to be Miss Party Girl and now I just wanted to hide from everyone and everything.
Finally saw a gynaecologist who immediately diagnosed me with early ovarian failure resulting in fluctuating oestrogen levels. Oestrogen is apparently largely responsible for our feelings of 'well being' etc. It also plays a large role in the quality of our sleep.
I had no idea. I just thought I had developed a mental illness. My gynaecologist reassured me that she treated dozens of forty something women just like me, every month.
She dismissed ADs and suggested HRT. I have just finished my 4th week of taking sequential HRT and I already feel so much better. I feel optimistic and positive again. I went to a ball last weekend and was one of the first on the dance floor and had a great time! 6 weeks ago I was dreading the same ball and trying to make excuses for not going.
I wish that I had been correctly diagnosed by my GP a year ago. Instead Iost a year of my life to ADs and crippling anxiety and low mood. I let down friends regularly and ignored my family much of the time. I have a lot of making up to do.
Taking HRT has saved my mental health, given me back myself and possibly saved several friendships. It's also given my children their 'proper' Mum back again 