Hi all, I'm hoping this is a good place for advice or ideas to get me back to work.
Backstory: I worked from 16 in McDonalds for 2 years, then Pitman trained as a legal secretary just after doing A Levels, worked as secretary to Partners for 8 years, went abroad and was an EA for a year, came back and did temping for a year, worked in events for 2 years, worked in an estate agents (negotiations and legal chain side) for 2 years and then had my DC. Volunteered for 6 months at a MH hospital in their admin dept. Did a BSc in Public Health when DC were at Primary and got a high 2:1. The next year Covid hit and I had to be home for DC. At that point I lost a lot of confidence and began to feel quite irrelevant in the world of work.
I got a high 2:1 for my degree and was very keen to do Public Health work at the time. I do feel I have forgotten a lot of it now (well I used to know the authors and dates of studies and I am not sure I'd remember all of the terminology for epidemiology any more which is what I was applying for pre-covid) and I am worried about being on my feet for long periods of time. Ideally I'd like to do something in Women's Health, as I feel more interested in helping people where I have lived experiences. I got firsts in the modules on Sexual Health Education, Epidemiology, Ethics and Law and Psychology.
In all it's been 14 years without working and I have absolutely no confidence in my abilities. Had a bad year health-wise 2 years ago which included getting panic attacks, which are now under control but I am nervous that I might trigger this again, which happened when I did try to apply for an NHS admin role at the start of the year and went to an interview, but didn't get the job. I think the panic attacks came after this because it fed into my low self esteem as it was Band 2, entry level. I've not tried to apply for anything since.
I often feel bad when I hear all of the shortages but then don't have the confidence to try again, partly because I feel silly applying for entry level work when I am so much older. I think a short course or something might help? I do love the academic side and am good in exams but I can't really afford an MA as the flat I rent only brings in about £22k pa and I am a single mum to teens now. Unless there are any supported courses or ways to get funding? I am 45 and don't want to not contribute any more, as I do feel I have some skills but need to re-boost myself, if that makes sense! Thanks.