I'm a full time carer for my mum and will be for about 2/3 more years. I have been doing it for about 3 years already as I've managed to work it around my children and supportive husband. I really want to get back into work and my siblings have agreed that they will take over the majority of my mum's care. One of my sisters is pregnant and will be the main carer once her child is in preschool.
I am taking this opportunity to retrain after mostly working in schools teaching (unqualified) and supporting. It would make most sense to finally qualify as a teacher but the idea of actually returning to teaching fills me with dread. After really thinking about what I want to do, I settled on wanting to work with books. I was looking at a Librarian course but then recently discovered a part time children's literature masters course which would open doors for working in publishing too.
I would be starting next year if I go for it. I keep flitting between being excited and optimistic to quite anxious and negative about it. I'm getting thoughts of what if I can't motivate myself (the courses will have to be online due to needing a flexible schedule), what if I regret taking on a massive course like this or what if I'm just not capable. I'm not sure why I'm so down on myself. I have a Law degree so I know academically I'm more than able.
So I guess my question is how do I move on from the anxiety of it? If you're a carer or work full, how did you fit in a masters in with kids etc? (My husband will help but he does work long hours).
If online, how did you motivate yourself on the days where it was hard?
Maybe I'm just mad and should leave it.