Looking for any advice or general thoughts.
In a nutshell: mid 30s, currently a SAHM to young children. We are lucky that DH is a high earner and that I have local family who are (very very willing!) to help with childcare when I return to work. I've taken a few years out of medicine to have my family and was never very senior to begin with. I'm not really sure I want to go back. I like parts of the job and recognise that it has been very good for my confidence but I don't think I love any specialty enough to go back to night shifts and revising for exams. I'm pretty good at dealing with stress but feel more and more worried about how the serious outcomes a mistake could cause. I also struggle with the lack of flexibility and choice (i.e. having to move around areas, not being able to apply to a new job if unhappy) and am just not sure if this is what I want to be spending my children's childhood doing.
The one thing I've always been really interested in is being a primary school teacher. I've been looking at schools for my eldest recently and have had a real pang that this is what I'm meant to be doing. I'm not (wholly) naive as one of my parents was a primary school teacher, I dated one and I've done work experience and part-time work (whilst at uni) in school settings. I'm also well-versed in the difficulties of the public sector and in working antisocial hours. However, I'm also well aware that, like medics, lots of teachers aren't too happy at the moment (to put it lightly!) and I'm not sure if this is all a bit of a pipe dream to escape from medicine?
More and more I'm wondering about not returning to medicine and perhaps working as a TA (unsure how competitive these roles are?) for a bit to see how I find it before applying for teacher training when both my children are school age. Has anyone got experience of similar? Is this a stupid idea? Obviously the pay will be different but I never got to a point where I earned very much in medicine (did a few years of clinical fellows if anyone is interested) and there has always been a (probably high) possibility I'd stay as a SAHM so I'm not really comparing the salary to an end-medic salary. A tiny part of me worries about 'wasting' my medical degree, and I've heard colleagues be quite rude about people who leave medicine for something 'less prestigious' (their opinion, not mine, although I admit I do worry about what people would say about leaving, a lot of my social life is made up of medics...)
Sorry for the essay but I'd be grateful for any thoughts, advice or personal experience.