Long post.. apologies
Am I mad to be considering this ?
I have three children. Two at school and a 7 month old baby. I live separately from their dad (my partner) for a variety of reasons. I thought about returning to work in September. I’m a TA, but with the high cost of childcare in comparison with the wage I would get sadly it doesn’t seem worth it.
I have considered going in to teaching for a long time. I already hold an undergraduate degree and I have had two attempts at a primary pgce. Once in 2012 and once in 2020. I still hold a place on the one I began in 2020 with the option to return in 2023. I left the course in 2012 due to inexperience and having to travel quite far for placement. In 2020 I suffered a bereavement and then lockdowns made returning difficult due to childcare issues. I then went on maternity leave. So effectively I would have to restart the pgce if I was to return in 2023. My children would be 9, 5 and 18 months.
I have been a TA since 2014. I volunteered for a few months while completing my training and then started supply work. before being offered a contract.
my eldest child was born in 2013, I lived with my partner until 2018. He has always earned more than me and I have worked part time or been off taking care of the children. While I was training as a TA he did pay some nursery fees. Since we have lived apart I arrange and cover nursery fees. My partners transfers me a set amount in child maintenance each week. Because we are together he often spends more though.
Through clearing I have applied for a place on an allied health profession course degree. I think I would be good at this profession and would be able to do it as an undergraduate over 3-4 days a week. I am going to apply for the childcare grant to help with childcare. I feel as though I have lost my passion for teaching and I can’t earn a lot as a TA. I feel stuck in a position with a low income and can’t provide what I would like to be able to for my children.
I am reluctant to tell my partner I have applied to university. He already wasn’t keen for me to return next year due to childcare fees and says he can’t afford to give us any more financial support. If I do it anyway I could lose the relationship.