I am planning on starting a foundation year prior to a 3 year midwifery degree in September. I currently work in a maternity ward and I’m constantly being told by my colleagues that training to be a midwife was a mistake. Some of them tell me that they cry when they get home, they are left short staffed with so many patients that they are scared of making a mistake at work etc. Bullying is very high, as I’ve experienced myself over my 5 years on that ward. Some of them don’t eat at all, until a ridiculous time of the day like 4pm. I see them on the postnatal ward just on the computer constantly and not in with the mums caring for them, I’m guessing the amount of documentation and paperwork is endless. Managers hide in their office and when things do go wrong they blame the staff.
I am still seeing so many students join every year who are so hopeful... until 2 months later when they express the truth of what they are going through. Students are apparently treated quite badly at my trust, they seem to be so shocked to realise what they have signed up for. I see this on every rotation and I just want to hug them! It then sinks in that I will be that student. I suppose every job especially within a hospital is going to be stressful and you are going to be rushed off your feet etc. I understand that, but the way the midwives have told it to me is to stay clear!
The NHS needs a serious overhaul of staffing and money to be put into training more staff. Attitudes and bullying are awful in the whole of the NHS apparently and not just my ward. I think things are only going to get worse, one midwife looking after 12 women and 12 babies can’t be safe, then add in that both HCA posts are blank as they don’t have enough staffing or sickness is high. Mental health sickness is high too, even with me and I’m not a midwife.
It’s a joke because I have applied for midwifery and attended the interviews and they were a great success and all came with conditional offers, until they received my Access results. I studied from home with no help or guidance from my “tutors” in the end I didn’t get enough distinctions to be accepted so they’re adding on a foundation year that I have to pay another £6000 for, plus the £4,500 I just paid for the Access course which proved to be useless. I didn’t understand the grading or marking and I thought that as long as you passed each assignment that would be enough and any higher grades you got were a nice bonus, but every uni near me seems to want the majority of marks to be distinction. None of this was communicated to me, my tutor used to take 3-4 days to email me back if I had a question or needed support on an assignment.
I’m angry with myself for “not trying hard enough”, however learning online is not easy... the support just isn’t there. At least with the company I went with. The woman marking my grades never gave me a distinction and every time someone else marked them I did get a distinction. I’m pretty sure she was way too harsh and I wanted to submit my work to someone higher for a re-evaluation, but I didn’t because I felt that nothing would have been done.
The current state of the NHS makes me want to stay clear of any healthcare career. The things that’s bugging me is that I can’t see myself doing anything else. I want to work with women and care for them. I just don’t want to put myself in the system where the government uses you and ruins your mental health. Who would willingly do that when they’ve seen what I’ve seen? I’ve seen enough to put me off. But I don’t know what else I would be good at? If anyone else has any other ideas surrounding healthcare that is not as bad as nursing/midwifery, please let me know as I would like to look at all options available.