am nearly at rock bottom with my fucking weight (again)

[trashcanjunkie]

Sigh. I'm 5'11 and weighing in at 17 stone. I've been 20 stone a few years ago, and managed to get down to 12 stone 12 pounds, with careful eating and lots of exercise, power walking mainly and a bit of jogging. I was a smoker however, and I quit in january. The weight has crept on and on and just before summer I injured my ankle, which just won't heal, thus making walking/swimming/bike riding impossible! I have a splint which I wear when I'm working (I work with dogs) and I can manage a hobble, but nothing to get me in a sweat. I'm waiting to see a specialist about my fucking foot, but in the mean time I am just continually fucking up with food. My issues seem to be that I'm an emotional eater, and my portion size is waaaay out of wack. I really need to change, but find myself failing everyday. I eat sensible, and at the same time, I plot away in the back of my mind about the other things I'm planning to eat at the first excuse/opportunity. I'm feeling in the throws of addiction and I'm utterly miserable about it, and can't see a way out of this sodding situation. I know it's down to me, but keep failing to muster the strength.

you've posted in low cab diet section?

have you tried low carbing? I've lost 5 stone this year through this way of eating

*carb!!

yes, I have posted here on purpose - low carb has totally worked for me in the past but for some reason this time I'm struggling to begin, or managing for a day or two then totally screwing up.

I would have thought that if you are an 'emotional eater' following an exclusion diet is more likely to add to your woes because psychologically it makes things more difficult.
Dropping from 20 stones to 12 is amazing and the way you did it is much more sustainable.
Obviously you are having a major hiccup now with your foot issue, but are you able to swim rather than jog?
I would really try a one day at a time strategy with your food, keep to your smaller portions but include some stuff you like so you don't feel deprived or inclined to plot and cheat.
It's going to be slower and not as dramatic as cutting out bread/potatoes etc etc BUT, it is more sustainable and healthier.
Is it worth seeing someone regarding whatever issues are triggering your 'addiction' do you think?

oh I could just have a little cry at your kindness isla thanks. I'm going to try swimming, but am worried about whiplash on the ankle joint, so am going to jog in the water if that makes sense. I burst the button on a size twenty dress today, and instead of going to the (admittedly shit) wedding do I was invited to, I actually took off all the slap I'd plied on and got into my jarmies. Humph. It's my birthday tomorrow and I can't believe I've allowed myself to get into a)such a big size b)such a pointless fucking funk about it. I'd love to know who to see about my addiction issues. Have had lots of counselling in the past, for self esteem and horror childhood shit. A generally in a good place about it but clearly somethings not right.....

Oh no, what an awful day for you that you felt you couldn't go to the wedding.
for your birthday today!
I honestly think that if you have managed to overcome whatever horrors went on in your childhood, to the extent that you had the strength of character to lose over 7 stones, then you can overcome this blip to get back on track.
Maybe your GP might point you in the direction of an addiction bod? or do a bit of trawling through t'interweb, where you might be able to find someone very specialised.
Stop beating yourself up though, just do one day at a time.
Good luck with the dicky foot.

You may find someone here OP, they are mostly US based but counsel people via Skype regularly.