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Do you ever feel like taking to the hills?

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livingthehighlife · 30/05/2010 16:03

I feel so awful even asking this...

I have been a single parent now since January. DS will be two next month and the terrible twos have really settled in. Constant battles of will, climbing, biting, throwing, hitting etc etc.

My life seems to be a constant charade of cooking, cleaning, cleaning some more, laundry, cleaning up more toys, having a screaming toddler hanging off me, cleanign up more toys and occasionally a chance to sit down and watch a bit of tv and run a brush through my hair.

His dad takes him 2 nights a week but he's usually back with him first thing the next morning or else i'm at work, so i rarely get a lie in anymore.

There are times when i just feel like i have so much on my plate that i wanna run into a cupboard and cry or else run off down the road and not come back.

Thankfully these days are few and far between, but today is one of them. Apart from the obvious glass of wine, are there any other coping strategies you ladies have to get thru feeling like this?

Oh, and is it really normal to feel like this? I feel so guilty. He's a beautiful little boy and i love the bones of him.

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mrsmharket · 30/05/2010 16:19

it is so normal lthl
((((((((((()))))))

the one thign i have found that really works is consistent boundaries with dd; there will be times when they get bit loose or looser. the important thing is not to beat yourself up about it it does get easier sweetheart. hth xx

livingthehighlife · 30/05/2010 20:30

oh thank you...i'm glad its normal lol!

i ended up calling his dad today to come and take him for a few hours and i went and bought myself a new dress and then sat in a coffee shop for an hour with a book, slice of cheesecake and a big cup of coffee. I came away feeling a bit more human thankfully lol

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Exogenesis · 30/05/2010 20:38

Perfectly normal. I find that drawing myself a long hot bath on " those " days even if its at 11 at night after i have managed to get everything done Works wonders.

Book, bath glass of wine. And as mrsmharket has said don't beat yourself up about it, it will in time get better

onlyone · 30/05/2010 22:02

i know exactly where you are coming from.

was being driven in sane today, constant constant need ofr attention from my 2.75 yr old.

Then sat on my lap, threw his arms round me and said I love you mummy.

Was worth it, I smiled, had tears in my eyes and hugged him tight.

Still need some space though!

sparklefrog · 31/05/2010 23:53

I think I know how you feel Livingthehighlife

DD is 22m and lately, every day is a constant relentless repetition of
No, Leave that alone, Get down from the chair, stop touching things that are not toys, please stop dragging the chairs/coffee table/toybox to the kitchen worktops to use them as footstools to climb up. Please don't climb onto the windowsill.

Made worse by the fact that DD can now reach the door handles, so I find myself constantly up and down the stairs to bring her back down where I can see her.

Added to this is the latest craze to rub anything edible and sometimes inedibleinto her hair just before we leave, coupled with a morbid fear of running water. Soil, banana's, yogurt.....

I am also finding it stressful and tiring. It is really beginning to wear me down. DD is so headstrong, and my XP is v v unreliable and doesn't see her regularly, so it's 24/7 right now.

I clock watch and count down until bed time alot.

Glad I'm not the only one.

GardenPath · 01/06/2010 04:18

LHL - don't you DARE feel awful!!

It's not you (everyone), it's our stupid modern Western culture expecting one person (whether in a two parent or lone parent situation) to look after a child 24/7 in isolation. It ain't natural. Don't beat yourselves up. They say it takes a whole village to rear a child - and doesn't it ever!

This country in particular is very unsupportive of families, especially lone parents, and it's appalling the way we as a society leave lasses like you struggling like this. We should be ashamed of ourselves.

Never mind NHS Direct and Childline - we should have 'Dial-a-Gran', 'Emergencyuncle.com', 'I'm-Gonna-Kill-the-Kids-Send-Someone-Round-NOW' and 'Mums-(Climbing-the-Walls)-Line-HELP!'

Short of that, sod the cleaning for a start and I hope none of you EVER do any ironing. Spend the time on the two year old, they're very demanding at that age - they just are - use distraction rather than confrontation, it makes your life a whole lot sweeter and keeps them sweeter too. The less you have to use the 'N' word, ('no'), the fewer screaming fits you'll have (from the toddler, not you) so try to engineer-out situations where you have to say 'no'. This is NOT 'spoiling' them, it's sheer common sense - they're two.

Make your home as kid-proof as possible and keep stuff they shouldn't touch out of their way, (get a stairgate, Sparkle and electrify the door handles).

Don't take them out when they're tired or due a nap unless they can sleep in the pushchair.

Play nice soft, calming music (Dvorak's 'New World' rather than Metallica' - never mind if you're not into Classical, it's calming) and don't feel guilty about parking them in front of their fave dvd often occasionally, though personally, David Attenborough rather than Brattz (one of mine is now a Zoologist with a Class 1 from Bristol uni, thanks to Dave). And while they're occupied, put your feet up and have a nice cup o' tea (or a glass of merlot), watch the dvd with them, DO NOT do the hoovering.

If you must do the cleaning, give them a little (harmless) job to do too. They'll make a hash of it but that's not the point. It makes them feel they're helping and sets a habit for life. This is a mistake I made (i.e. not doing it) but then I had six on my own and it was easier to do it myself than oversee that many at a time - and I had a farm to run and none of them were any good with a chain saw.

Do you have a paid job? (Yeah, yeah, I know - it's enough of a job with a toddler) but, if you can weave your way around the shitty benefit system and get some part-time work (that suits you and that you like), it'll get you out of the house and if the childcare's great it might be what your litt'lun needs too for a few hours a week. If you're on Income Support, they may take your wages off pound for pound though I think you can do so many hours without it affecting benefits much - watch how it effects the Housing Benefit and Council Tax though - I'm assuming a lot here, so forgive me if I've got it all wrong and I just sound patronising. The point is it sounds as if you need a break and while you may not be that much better off in a paid-for job (as opposed to the unpaid job you're doing already), it's a different environment and it'll be a holiday compared and your litt'lun will be (hopefully) happily worn out from playing with other tantrummy two year olds and someone else will have had to cope with it all - reeezult.

Keep your mates. If you can't always organise it so's you have a night out once a year week (it's expensive!) ask a few of them round to yours for pasta and alcohol - bring your own. If you can wangle it that dc is at dad's/grans - and so are theirs - great - go out. If not, ask them anyway, with their kids. Get some blow-up beds and travel cots - (or some tents if you have a garden - the weather's lovely - you can all sit round the barbie/fire - kids love that - you'll be amazed how quiet they can be staring into flames, as they drift off to sleep cuddled up in blankets, just listening to the grown-ups chatting)- put the babes to bed - have a laugh about your ex's - get pissed.

That last suggestion is recommended.

Failing all that, have a few more - they tend to keep each other occupied (just kidding).
The first one is always the hardest, simply because it's nothing like anything you've ever done before. You've had no training and no warning. You get no pay, no pension, no appreciation, no help and no thanks and everyone thinks (including you) that because you gave birth to it you should know automatically how to manage and if you don't you're a failure. What we all fail to appreciate is that nature never intended anyone to do it alone. What this society fails to appreciate, or continues to ignore, is that two parents is not enough so stop giving lone parents a hard time and cut them some slack. We're doing a damn fine job rearing the next generation, a hell of a social contribution that no one else would do without a big fat salary - and that deserves at the very least support and respect.

lilac21 · 01/06/2010 07:22

GardenPath, what a fantastic post!

sparklefrog · 01/06/2010 09:41

GardenPath

What a fantastic post. It has cheered me up, and I hope it will cheer LTHL up too.

You are spot on.

How old are your DC GardenPath?

marcopront · 01/06/2010 16:20

One thing I would add is if you can afford it get a cleaner. I used to use the child benefit to pay for it. The difference in my stress levels was amazing.

poshsinglemum · 01/06/2010 22:41

Garden path that is spot on -thank u!

I know EXACTLY what you mean OP-it's tough! I have a part time job and it's fab! I make money despite loosing income support and it has boosted my self-esteem. i still get to see lots of dd and she gets to mix with other kids at the childminder's house. Bliss.

lionstigersandbearsohmy · 04/06/2010 08:52

You are a genius gardenpath, thank you for such a great post

Em41 · 04/06/2010 11:19

Please don`t feel guilty about your feelings. It is tough at times with a little one and even more so when you are single. My youngest was a little minx but at the age of 10yrs she is much better (she has her moments still obviously) but you can reason with her now. She knows when she has done wrong or upset you and will eventually come and give me cudddles. When she was young I had a terrible time with her and couldnt have coped without my friends. We used to take it in turns to have the children so the other one could either have time out or get stuff done. We are still best friends now.

I would def agree with having a cleaner as this is one of the biggest burdens ..... I opt for a gardener in the summer instead now as my children are older and help me do the chores. Its all about changing your mindset and what is important to you at the time .... and your priorities do change as the children get older.

I am able to get a lie in now as the children are old enough to get themselves up, keep occupied and even bring me a cup of tea in bed. I love my children.

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