hi i just need some direction please.........i had a stressful pregnancy wiv the ex and he wasnt ready so i agreed to go it alone but he cudnt let go nd hassled me thruout and he never supported me and turned up to anything , towards the end he got aggressive and said very nasty things which caused me to move away as i feared him after that. He then tried to threaten me and then tried the nice approach, i tried the whole pregnancy to involve him despite spending the best part of every single day trying to understand what i had done that made me deserve this treatment. I had a alot of issues and they wer down to stress and now baby is here he says he wants to meet baby so after 3mths of thinkin none stop i AGAIN made the effort to get him to see him and he denied going to a contact centre as he didnt want anyone knowing his business. I then drove 200miles to him and he was an hour late to meet us and didnt really utilise the time.
Ive come away feeling good in some respect but have a whole load of new other feelings now that its suddenly hit home that IM ALONE, wer do i go from here, ive spent so long holding onto those feelings and awaiting that moment wer he meets his dad and of the pregnancy and now i feel i have some closure but am now left feeling really lost and am no nearer to knowing what the future holds, i really need someone to help me make sense of this, Im so confused now and am right back to feeling like i did before trying to work out my situation!! i hate that he doesnt want me despite me not wanting him, i hate that he doesnt care enough to fight for lil man, i miss him but the old him, so long i waited and held onto those feelings and now its done wer do i go from here? its very scary and reality has punched me right in the ovaries. Any help will do